Blessing in Disguise

You know how difficult it is when you have all the spirit to move on and istiqamah (continuosly doing it), but somehow in the middle of the road you found some obstacles.. Like mine, perhaps it was the computer that suddenly kept on hanged, or the surprisingly unstable internet connection thru WiFi.. Wow, it is not easy to write. How does those mommies out there did it huh? Found my friends with juggling between office works, meetings and datelines, house works and handling children able to write much more plus their family trips, cooking, workshop etc. I am so envy with their strength hihihi

On February 3 years ago, i was assigned to assist on development of new business wing for an organization in East Coast region. New business start up that will be a pilot test for other branches. As earlier we found the local team in difficulties to make it move, so the CEO asked me whether any possibility for me to overseeing that project. Of course i have to get consent from my husband, and it was lucky that the place is nearby my husband's hometown - the parents in law house. So he said yes, and i gave condition to the organization it should be a max of 1 year and i shall be coming back after that. No staying there forever.

During that year, i travelled a lot from and to KL and KT. I frequently went for outstation in KL, well as you now..outstation means your time will be fully utilize at the office. I was in the office from 8.00am to 9.30pm every outstation day in KL. I barely had time to 'watch' my house in KL, i wont be able to cook, clean up, arrange things or even sweep the floor.. So, yeahhh i do missed our little house here a lot.

It was a long distance relationship, since my daughter and I were in KT and my husband was in KL. We met mostly on average of once in 5 weeks, and fill up those other days through phone calls and rarely videos as internet connection at my PIL was only 516kb. Often when we met, either one side of us will be exhausted due to long distance travelling. Imagine that the travel time by road was about  8 hours at that time. Even if i was the one coming to KL, i was already overwhelmed by many tasks that need to be completed at the office.

Blessing in Disguise.

I would say that as the parents, our daughter missed her dad the most. But she was loved more (less misbehave & mess making in front of the dad, thus less scolds haha) As a couple, it was the feeling of longing for each other. We quarrel or being in disagreement lesser (or almost none?) so in a bit of harmony life.. As a daughter in law and grand-daughter, we developed good relationship with not only the PIL but my husband's side of extended families.

Of course about the work experience. I learnt that if i am focus enough, with blessing from husband and family and of course with The Almighty's will.. The sky is only the beginning.. (hahaha!!)

Jangan marah2

Dah lama tak kongsi sgt apa dlm fikiran.. Mungkin minda bawah sedar saya sedikit bingung dgn perubahan yg berlaku dlm hidup, cuba menghadam setiap sesuatu .. hari2 adalah perkara baru utk saya belajar sesuatu, hari2 kdg2 terfikir betapakah lemahnya jiwa saya dan semangat saya... membandingkan diri dgn ramai rakan2 di sekeliling yg mampu membuat itu dan ini walau lebih sukar keadaan dari saya.. melihat jauh di sana sini kehidupan mereka yg lebih sukar, tetapi bukanlah masalah menghadapi kehidupan berbanding saya.. mungkin kdg2 keselesaan dan kemudahan mmg membuatkan kita tidak kuat menerima walau sikit2 dugaan.. dan saya anggap tekanan untuk menyiapkan kerja2 'sekolah' (thesis- walhal mini thesis sahaja ) , kerja2 pejabat hatta kerja2 rumah juga sebenarnya satu dugaan utk saya.. utk mengawal perasaan dan level of stress...

p/s: seorg rakan sekerja yg punya anak 3 lihat saya sangat kalut selalu.. katanya anak seorang mmg begitu.. ibu mertuanya pernah memberitahu dia bahawa anak seorg kalut, anak kedua masih kalut lagi, tetapi ke-3 sudah OK takde masalah.. jadi disuruhnya saya cepat2 ke no. 3 (oh nanti dulu..bukan di situ point saya).. point di sini nak tahu pendapat ibu2 yg sudah beranak 3 dan ke atas, benarkah penyataan itu? hehehe ramai ni leh jawab, Farrah, Najibah, Aida, Hani, Hany hehehehe...kalau en mudin nak jawab utk bakal ke-3 pon boleh...

Teringat lirik lagu Doa, "Tuhanku aku hilang bentuk, kembara di bumi asing...". Ya, dunia baru saya adalah dunia asing utk saya belajar membetuk kembali diri.. Dunia dahulu tak byk perlu saya kisahkan.. kerana saya seorg. Dunia saya 28 tahun.. kalau apa2 pun saya tulis saya hanya perlu fikirkan kesannya pada saya seorg.. tetapi kini kesannya berkait2 jadi perlu juga berhati2 menulis supaya bukanlah menjadi wasangka apatah lagi fitnah buat org lain :)

Hari ini saya tertarik dengan tajuk posting dalam saifulislam tentang "Siapa sepak kucing malang itu?" Ya sesekali bermuhasabah diri, juga mengingatkan diri tentang marah ini...

Dalam kerjaya juga sebenarnya tentang marah2 ini perlu elak.. sebab kemarahan yg bertali arus dan bertambah nilai dari satu tingkat ke satu tingkat ini bila sampai kepada yg akhir sekali menjadi lebih emotional berbanding rasional.. lantasnya kerja yg dibuat juga sudah tidak tahu antara yg waras atau kerana nak sedap/sejukkan hati bos yg membara.. tambah nilai marah? macamana tu? katakan Boss no 1 marah kepada bos no 2 tentang sesuatu laporan /prestasi/kerja etc. sbb yg perlu selesaikan ialah anak buah bos no 2, bos no. 2 yg sedang marah melepaskan geram pada anak buahnya. anak buahnya yg punya pembantu2 lain, terasa lebih2 lagi tercalar .. geram pada bos no 2 + marah bos no 1 + marah bos no 2 = marah kepada pembantu2.. bila semua kena tempiasnya, lantas kerana laporan perlu diperolehi dari unit lain.. maka pembantu2 ini bersama marah yg bertambah nilai itu marah pula unit lain.. akhirnya kerja dibuat dlm keadaan marah2 juga.. jumpa pelanggan juga dlm marah2.. jumpa vendor juga marah2.. jumpa org bank juga marah2..

Jadi pemimpin mmg bukanlah sesuatu yg senang.. selain dr fizikalnya hendaklah boleh diharap (bukan..bukan rupa paras maksud saya.. pancaindera yg lengkap dan akal yg baik itu laa).. emosi nya juga perlulah diimbangi.. saya juga bercakap utk mengingatkan saya tentang mereka2 yg bakal saya pimpin.. bukan shj di pejabat malah si kecil di rumah yg sedang meningkat dewasa (yg pastinya boleh shj bila2 menggugat kesabaran)..

Pesan utk hati saya, janganlah marah2..
Pesan utk jiwa saya, tenang2lah selalu
Pesan utk akal saya, lapangkanlah hati..
Pesan utk diri.. istigfar selalu.
Allahu'alam.

Allahuma yasir wala tu'asir Ya karim tammim bilkhair..

It has been a while since my last update..
AlHamdulillah despite of all the things that happened in our country, my company still provides us with bonus and yearly salary raise. Although not that much compared to previous years, but some is better than none...

I dont have much update these days.. Cant think of what to update.. Perhaps i have too many in my mind that i dont think so worth to share with others. Furthermore, things have been updated by a number of people nowadays..

Malas

Cuti lama.. Dari lepas Krismas hingga semalam...
Dan hari ini, terasa malas untuk masuk ke pejabat semula..
Kalaulah tidak kerana tugas dan tanggungjawab yang masih perlu dipikul, mungkin sudah menyambung lagi cuti... ehheheh
:p

cuba teka apa tu..

hi people..
i'm back..after all this while.
at last.
and at least, for this time.

guess the current situations are really consuming my energy and my brain capacity. kinda of exhausted too.. but as the common says, life goes on.
now i understood better when people said how hard it is when you're doing both the work and study at the same time.. although you thought that you have some spare time before enroll into the class.

oh, yes. i have been assigned for another task (in a different division) since early September. and as always when it comes to changing my task and role, i will take time to juggle myself back between the old task, the new role, expectation on me for that role, get used with people in the new place, suiting my self and soul to that role etc. here is when the mood is like a roller coaster for several weeks that is sometimes goes high and down or both at the same time.. i think i miss my good friends so much :)

and.. new born babies of my dear friends, including my best friend - (siti) Iena panadol and my twin - Zarid, not forgotten my dear junior Hainey. To siti and hainey, Congratulations and welcome to parenthood. to Zarid, alHamdulillah everything is fine for you this time :) .

what else?
Added another member to our family - my 5-going-to-6 months old niece - Dhiya Adrianna (mak dia ni suka betul kasi nama susah i nak sebut). the brother turned to 2 years and 7 months already and now is busying with pens and papers to writting (scrabble).

so there was one day..that i thaught him how to draw a simple drawing.
one round in the middle, followed by five 3/4 rounds surrounding that big round, one straight line and almost-triangle-shape leaf like.. i said to him: cuba teka, apa ni.. He exclaimed: Ung-nge (Bunga).

another one.. double-round shapes in the middle, with another big round surrounding the shapes. 2 U-type shapes on top of the big circle, another one inside the circle, two-6-shapes on the left, another two-6-mirror-shapes on the right side.. He said: Bear..

i drew a big circle, with small-circle on top and some vertical lines in the middle . I said to him: ini ball (bola).. he said: epal..

drew another one..told him "kita lukis itik, ok" he nodded his head .. and said to him when i'm done "itik".. he looked at that drawing and shout out: tortoise.

heard my sister was laughing out loudly behind...
adoi. anak buah saya.

16th Ramadhan 1429

It has been more than half-a-month now.
Leaving us with the remaining 13-14 days to go. How much have we done so far... This is a rhetoric question to ourselves.

I have been asking myself on these few days if i am already taking enough advantage of this holy month. Somehow, i feel like i am missing something. Something that make me feel not complete, but i cannot figure out yet what is it. Have i left or not doing something that i used to do during Ramadhan? Have i wrong doings anything? Perhaps someone was hurt because of me?

Despite of the fact that i have been officially transferred into another division, i don't feel the kick inside me yet. Something that i have been looking for months; afraid that i might actually unconsciously accepted the comfort-zone culture here and slowly adapted to it.

Maybe the adrenaline has been hiding somewhere inside my body that it makes me being cold inside out. Guess, you may suggest alternatives to burn back the spirit and heat up the motivation level in me?

Anyway, this Ramadhan.. will be the first time being a student again after all these years. hehe not so much different only the facts that i am pushing myself to read and prepare things for the class. Though it is hard, the self-reluctant is even bigger now :p.

I have no idea at the moment what else to share with the visitors here.
So till then, take care. :)

How's Life

People said that my blog reveals a lot about what is happening inside me..
That it is easy to guess when i'm in a good mood, or when i do not have the motivation..
When i am upset or when i am inspired by something, someone or somewhat..
And those who are close to me said it is easy to say whether i have a complex deep thinking or that i am having an innocent simple brain execution.

I have never thought it is that easy to know me. :)

Anyway i understand that it has been quite a while (or is it that long?) i do not post anything inside here. Until recently i found out that i will go blank when i am trying to type the words. Surprisingly, i forget how to write! (and share things with people?)

Well, things may not be that excellent, but they were not that bad too. Before this, i have lack of time as I was (and still am) too busy with my workload that sometimes i forget when the time goes by. Since furthering study, my condition somehow becoming worst as i forget when is the night and when the day has come. I forget how it feels to sleep in long hours, to have rest on your weekends, and to eat food with feel and utmost pleasant.

Almost 2 months-and-a-half after the first class started, i already took 7 days leave for study reason. The subject will continue from one syllabus in a period of time, with another syllabus/subject in another period of time which continue right after the end of other subject. Things becoming quite messy with us when at the end of each subject, we will have a final exam (to study), presentation (to prepare slide material) and to submit assignment paper (research and readings). I get headaches for these, not to mention always feel like having fever on each time i took leave to complete my assignments, presentation slides and syllabus to be in the exam.

I have not read enough newspaper, unable to go back to my hometown for almost 2 months, and lack in handling my personal life properly. I am learning and trying to adjust my life now to the new environment.

So, forgive me for unable to share my point of view at the time being. I love reading your updates once in a while, when i feel so tired. I would love to share more things with you. InshaAllah the day will come again when i am really active in updating this blog again. ;)

Till then, take care everyone.

p/s: Did i mentioned that i am going to be transferred (yes, being transferred not request for a transfer) to another division soon?

Tagging games

{1} So-Called Training
Warning: this posting is not suitable to be viewed by Husben Ummu Nufayl. :p Pls take it as if this is not related to your program, TQ!: ))

Supposed yesterday i attended a whole day training consists of 5 modules/sessions. It started at 8.45am to 5.00pm with morning break, lunch and tea time provided by the organizer. But this is what really happened:

8.45 am -went up to register myself, took my seat, chit-chat with some old friends i met in the event. Session 1 started. Listened, took notes, points etc.
9.55 am - went down for a meeting at 10 am in my office. important meeting because it involved my customers account so as the account manager i am supposed to be there.
10.30 am - morning break (still in the meeting)
10.45 am - 2nd session started. The main reason for me to attend this program is to listen to this 2nd session: discussion on current economy situation in Malaysia. (still in the meeting)
11.30 am - still in the meeting. received sms from informer that the 3rd session started already.
12.30 noon - people from the office went out in a group. informed our big boss admitted to the hospital. (still in the meeting)
1.15 pm - lunch time. meeting done. those in the meeting asked whether i will be joining them to visit our boss. i was asking "should i go?" and they have this kind of look on me.. indirectly saying "why not?". so, there was i..
2.45 pm - after the visit, have not had my lunch, bought yogurt and cream bread, ate few spoons of the yogurt and went to the training back.
3.00 pm - it's the 5th module now. so hungry...
4.15 pm - tea time - had some sweet porridge and one pulut panggang..
4.30 pm -baru makan sikit, tak sempat minum dah kena panggil masuk : ((
5.10 pm -masuk ofis balik. habiskan yogurt tadi. lepas tu dah pening.

8.30 pm - at home. sempat minum air kosong, lepas tu dah lembik.. tido.. uhuhuh

pagi2 sampai ofis, terus cari makanan dulu.. :))

ok sekian cerita saya!:P

{2} Tagging game
Setelah puas berfikir, inilah yg saya dapat..hahahha

Senaraikan 5 hadiah yang anda impikan:

1. 20 original /unedited tapes on the whole shooting of Kembara Bumi Anbiya'.
2. Dapur macam dapur Martha Stewart, Vivien, Nigela or Anna Olson (guess watching too much Asian Food Channel)
3. A lots of Money , Money and Money Shopping Vouchers
4. Book Cabinet Walk-in Closet (mcm Aini jugak:P)
5. Pokok Duit / Money Tree (bukan pokok duit-duit:P)
6. Err..dah cukup ke?: ))

Senaraikan alasan atas pilihan anda itu:

1. I never had the chance to watch the unedited tapes; plus these tapes recorded all of our journey for the program... and the real production was not following the original scripts.
2. Saya suka menyepahkan dapur jadi saya perlukan tempat yang luas di dapur (do we need reasons to like something?:P)
3. I usually don’t have enough time to do shopping (especially time sales je mesti tgh sibuk :( )
4. Tempat nak isi baju la bila dah beli banyak..hahahha saya selalu bermasalah tak tahu nak pakai ape di waktu pagi / terasa baju tak cukup... berharap dpt tempat yang lebih besar supaya boleh beli byk2 baju:))
5. Err..saya rasa daun pokok ni unik dan comel : P

5 impresi terhadap orang yang diminati:
(i’ll skip this question for the time being.. it’s for me to know, and for u to find out:P)

1.
2.
3.
4. .
5.

Perkara yang paling hebat pernah dilakukannya untuk anda:

(I’ll skip this question too)



5 ciptaan yang paling disukai (tidak semestinya melibatkan teknologi yang maju):


1. Jam tangan
2. Handphone
3. Internet
4. Computer
5. Kasut

Apakah perkara yang paling dibenci?

1. Asap rokok
2. Panas dan matahari terik
3. orang yang cakap bukan-bukan
4. orang yang sombong bodoh - takleh ajar, juga takleh terima pendapat..huuh susah nak liaise
5. situasi marah-marah, tegang

5 Orang yang yang mahu anda tag:

1. Ummi Indah :P
2. Cik Ariatinta
3. Pn Hany (kalau die rajin and ada masalah:D)
4. anyone else?
5. maybe you?:P

p/s: Ok dah habis hutang yer!!!

Mencari jawapan

{1} Siapa Sarah?

Puas sudah saya berfikir, siapa Sarah? Puas juga saya berteka-teki, bertanya kepada empunya cerita . Tapi masih belum bertemu jawapan.. Kucing, katanya bukan. Haiwan peliharaan, juga bukan.. Manusia? Lelaki atau perempuan belum ditentukan.. Saya fikir2 si penglipur lara ini dimensinya selalu berbeza, pasti sesuatu yang jauh melangkaui kebiasaan. :p

Boleh awak bantu saya? :D

{2} Lawatan Perdana

Osmet saya (baca: teman serumah) memanggilnya Incik J. Saya kira, ada juga yang memangilnya Mr. P. Sejak akhir2 ini saya lihat Incik J ini sering kali singgah di tempat saya. Aduhh, sukar juga saya kira sebabnya tidak tentu arah kalau dia datang melawat. Sudahlah begitu, datangnya beramai-ramai pula. Lepas satu, satu yang datang. Saya pusing kepala selalu.

Sudahnya hari Ahad yang lalu, dia datang lagi. Kali ini satu sahaja, tapi kerana tidak pernah menerima kunjungan yang begitu saya rasa terseksa. Amat! Sudahlah merah-merah warnanya. Makin hari, dia mengambil tempat yang makin luas, makin besar. Sudah bermacam-macam saya lakukan, namun dia masih di situ. Pulak begitu, dia kelihatan sangat nyata.. Semua yang lalu di sisi saya akan menegur tentang dia.

Uhuhuhuhu... apa patut saya lakukan sekarang?
Dia duduk bermukim di atas hidung.. taknak hilang2.. : ((
Incik Jerawat, cepatlah pergi!!

{3} Mimpikah saya?

Pelik.. tapi benar.
Sejak dua hari ini, saya lihat network kami membenarkan access ke semua laman. Pelik, tapi benar2 saya melihatnya. Wahh apa sudah jadi? Mereka terlepas tengok kah..atau mereka mmg sudah melepaskan untuk ditengok?

Apa2 pun.. yaaa saya akan berusaha untuk kerja dengan baik juga walaupun dugaan yang menarik itu banyak di depan mata.. Dugaan, dugaan..

Jangan Buat Lagi

[1] Kena Tegur

copyright © Drake Brodahl

I have totally forgotten that we had our regional meeting this morning. My boss seemed to be frustrated as most of us did not turned up on time. I was the last to be in the meeting, 1/2 hr late due to unforeseen circumstances. Was being advice and alert on the important of being on time. Felt quite uneasy, as usually i have no problem to be on time. What is happening to me? Guess the motivation level is not to the par yet. I feel tired already...


[2] Young Ages..

Courtesy of Shizukana Studio

Take into account 5 things before the next 5.

It has been my wish to actually do something big or significant in my life before I turn 30. I wish i would be able to contribute something to the society. I am going to reach that age soon, but not so much progress, not so much things i have done. I feel I have not done anything yet. It seems that i have no planning yet, when i am actually running out of time...

Wish only, but no work is not something to be proud off, kan?

[3] Putrajaya

I thought i will be able to run away a while when i was there. Only then to realize that my time has been fully utilized. I have not had the chance to even walk around the hotel; only be at 3 places: level 3 - the lobby; level 1 - meeting room and hotel room (they were located in front of each other) and level 1 - coffee house area for breakfast/lunch/dinner. So, all the facilities: swimming pool, spa, sauna, health-house, gym - i was unable to identify the exact location yet.

The place is nice actually. Received feedbacks that the workshop has achieved its objective, that the workshop was the most focused and properly planned they had attended.. I feel all the sleepless hours, tiredness and efforts are worthwhile. Now it is time for the post-workshop work! (uhuhuh banyak juga keja, ingat dah sudah dah....)

Mencari Makna

[1] My Dear Friend
I have been receiving quite a number of question asking me who is her. Maybe to the fact that most of people here are somewhat related to each other, having someone considered 'new' to their eyes will spark some interest. he he he.. I guess it is the time for me to introduce another friend of mine to you all.

Cik As.
(Minta kebenaran ya..cik punya badan, promote sket:P)

We met in 2003/2004 (i cant remember the year) in a routine of 3 months-once- a-week-class of interfaith class. Cik As is not a person from the same school, university, company or home town with me.

We strengthen our friendship relationship through enhancement classes, chatting, changing of ideas on net, towards blogging. I was so excited and happy (and still actually) when she informed her wish to join bloggers, as i think she has a lot in her mind that is valuable to be shared. I am never wrong on this part actually, because (now it seems i declared it publicly:P) i love the way she writes and present her writings. one of the person that makes me enjoy reading her words, and always waiting for her updates.

In a way, i observed she and Pn Hany shared the same value. Who said engineers cannot express their feeling well, because these two ladies tell they are different from the generalization assumption. Oh, yes ladies. I also think that you too can be good friends. ;)

Lain2 tu rasanya , biarlah cik punya badan yang ceritakan. Rajin2lah melawat dia di situ.. Ya Cik As, kenal2kanlah diri.. mereka semua ni peramah. tak makan org. eheheh

[2] Mencari Makna Dalam Diri
"Tidak dijadikan jin dan manusia kecuali untuk beribadat kepada Allah SWT"

The last few days i felt like i just awaken from a long dream. I knew that i was not dreaming all this time, i knew i was awake. It is just that suddenly you have this kind of feeling, and it goes like *blink*. And i started to ask question that i have not asked myself for years. "What am i?".

I am lost.

I guess i am going to start my journey soon, to find my way, to search for myself.
I hope i will find my destination soon.

Mencari makna dalam diri. Mencari makna dalam jiwa.



[3] Alert
How do i supposed to know if someone needs my update or if it is ok i don't update for a while? Just like i used to be... Sometimes i will ignore my own blog visiting others blogs, one day they do not update their blogs and i said if they are all right, when later i figured out people indirectly in their emails or conversations or sms inform me if i have 'retired' from blogging. The shoutbox has been blocked. I have no intention to replace it at the moment. So, in case i have been idle for a long time and you wish to see some updates would you please shout at my comment box and i will try to scratch my mind to share anything with you?

[4] Updates on Life
I will be having a business workshop one-week next week in Putrajaya, going to stay there through out the week... Really hoping i will be able to motivate myself back after the event. So, any good suggestion to do there? :D

Better Days

After several months and weeks of highly tense atmosphere ; plus the non-productive , almost non-existence ability to perform and 'i can't think straight now, let me clear my cloud first' things..

These two days seems to show better lights on my work here. I feel more productive, as i managed to complete more tasks and doing more things, getting used to some pace.


Well, except to later time in the afternoon.. But then, it is all right.
Today, I achieved better than my own expectation. :p

Penyejuk Hati

Buat diri2 yang resah, juga ditimpa pelbagai perkara..
Pengubat jiwa.. Penyejuk hati..

Surah Ali ‘Imran: 14 – 17.

3: 14:

Dijadikan indah pada (pandangan) manusia kecintaan kepada apa-apa yang diingini, iaitu: wanita-wanita, anak-anak, harta yang banyak dari jenis emas, perak, kuda pilihan, binatang-binatang ternak dan sawah ladang. Itulah kesenangan hidup di dunia; dan di sisi Allah-lah tempat kembali yang baik.

3:15:

Katakanlah: ”inginkah aku khabarkan kepadamu apa yang lebih baik dari yang demikian itu?”. Untuk orang-orang yang bertakwa (kepada Allah), pada sisi Tuhan mereka ada syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya sungai-sungai; mereka kekal di dalamnya. Dan (mereka dikurniakan) isteri-isteri yang disucikan serta keredhaan Allah; Dan Allah Maha Melihat akan hamba-hamba-Nya.

3:16:

Iaitu orang-orang yang berdoa, ”Ya Tuhan kami, sesungguhnya kami telah beriman, maka ampunilah segala dosa kami dan peliharalah kami dari seksa neraka”

3:17:

Iaitu orang-orang yang sabar, yang benar, yang tetap ta’at, yang menafkahkan hartanya (di jalan Allah) dan yang memohon ampun di waktu sahur..

Di Perjalanan

Buat teman-teman yang rajin berkunjung ke sini,

Terima kasih diucapkan kerana sabar menanti setiap masa. Dan terima kasih kerana masih sudi datang menjenguk sekali sekala. Blog sementara waktu tidak dapat dikemaskinikan.. Saya sedang menjalankan tugas di luar..

Viet-Nam - itu kata mereka, cara yang betul mengeja nama negara.




Ho Chi Minh - nama baru bagi Saigon selepas tahun 1975. Pusat komersial Viet Nam; juga berada di Selatan Viet Nam..

Cuaca seperti di Malaysia, panas dan hujan sepanjang tahun.





Hanoi - mengalahkan dan menakluk Saigon pada perang 1975. Berada di Utara Viet Nam. Pusat pentadbiran kerajaan Viet Nam sekarang.

Sini 4 musim.. Sejuk, Bunga, Panas dan Luruh..
tak tersangkakan akan berhadapan musim sejuk (yang masih lagi), sudah dapat sehelai jaket baru di Ho Chi Minh.




Mereka.. satu negara, satu bahasa.. tetapi berbeza.

Updates will be coming soon..

Root Cause

Last night i had a conversation with my housemate. It was (later) dragged to work matters, and i suddenly expressed to her that i am not feeling quite 'well' for the past few months; especially since i changed to new department.

I have to admit that my stress level kept mounting every day; to the facts that i made a number of mistakes in my job; and the customers have been waiting for my responses; and the non-stop work that keep on coming to my desk and my email but my inability to fully understand what is it all about or how to do it; and when i'm needed in the meeting with the customers and i totally felt lost while at most time will be saying this in my heart "what the h*ll these aliens are talking about"....

And then it happens... I started to miss my previous work; where i felt i am better on and well verse ....

i received these bouquet of flowers and a present on my last day at my
previous unit..

This is the risk of changing your expertise to a new different experience. I thought i wont last long, because the frustration and dissapoinment in myself is almost there.. Thank you, to my housemate that she told me to find the root cause of what happened. I then realized that i never had a proper training and info on my tasks, plus never i had a good understanding and picture of what i am doing. It became worst when i am so used to proper process and procedure, but it seems to did not exist here. Culture shock, i supposed.

But i am ok now, better off.

Just trying to relax myself, and forgive myself for not able to do things which is beyond my knowledge. (This suggestion really work on me, i got better sleep last night). Now i am working out for increasing my knowledge, and brush up the proper process to be enforced here, not to all but at least to what i am doing..

Thanks, everyone.. Those around me are very helpful ..
Thank you, Allah for make it easy for me when requesting for other's assistance.

Ramadhan 20

Salam buat semua.
Saya tahu terlalu lama tidak menulis. Terima kasih buat teman2 yang menghantar msg mengharap saya menulis. Sungguh, terharu....

Sejak pulang ke kuala lumpur, hidup saya agak sibuk. Belum habis kelam-kabut berpindah, kerja2 sudah menanti. Hari ini alHamdulillah saya berjaya juga menukar 'kulit' sebyk 80%. Lagi 20% mungkin nanti, nanti.. Untuk yang menanti2kan skin yg baru, semoga sukakannya..

Cerita saya lagi, kerana terlalu sibuk dengan kerja dan peribadi, saya lupa membayar bil telefon. So hanya boleh terima call and sms sahaja buat waktu ini, sehinggalah saya punya kesempatan untuk membuat bayaran.

Minggu lepas saya baru pulang dari Kuching, mengendalikan audit di sana (saya sudah ada sijil lead auditor ISO..ehhehe). minggu ini sambung audit di KL dan closing meeting. Juga ada berita baru diterima, inshaAllah saya bakal bertukar (lagi?) . Kali ini ke division lain pula. Biar dulu cerita ini, sehingga surat tiba ke tangan. Ingin mencuba sesuatu yg baru, tapi rasa sedikit nervous. Maklumlah lebih 5 thn duduk di sini sudah jadi master dgn seluruh unit dan kerja, tiba2 nak tukar buat sesuatu yg baru ... Still, i think it is a high time for me already. Afraid i may unable to handle change in future shall i remain here.

Lagi cerita, comment farrah..tentang dodol. tahun ini kebetulan ibu saya rajin pula untuk membuat semula dodol resipi keluarga. Dimasak secara manual (bukan menggunakan mesin) selama berjam2, menggunakan kuali besar dan unggun api, dan dibungkus dalam daun mengkuang .. Macam dulu2.. A really tradisional concept. Hajatnya nak buat sedikit sahaja, sbb ada beberapa orang yg 2-3 thn mendesak supaya saya menjualnya. Cuma saya yang malas... hehe so kalau sesiapa berminat, boleh sahaja. Harganya tak mahal, hanya Rm21 sahaja. Rasanya, inshaAllah berpuas hati. Selain sedap, tidak berbau hapak (guna mesin akan ada sedikit rasa ini), juga tahan lama sehingga lebih 6 bulan tanpa dimasukkan ke dalam peti sejuk. Tempahan kalau nak diterima last sekali hari jumaat ini..

apa2 pun pagi tadi saya teringat sesuatu. saya asyik berfikir tarikh 25 September. Apa yang ada, mcm ada sesuatu tapi tidak teringat. Sudah seminggu saya fikir kalau2 ada hari lahir rakan2 rapat pada tarikh itu, tidak ada. Kemudian saya teringatkan beberapa org rakan rapat serta anak2 mereka, tiba2 saya terfikir umur mereka.. baru saya perasan rupanya kisah perjalanan kami sudah menjangkau 6 thn. Mungkin tak ramai yg perasan/ingat kerana ..... byk sbbnya, tapi apa2 pun selamat hari ulang tahun DCBA. Tinggal beberapa kerat sahaja ahli DCBA yg masih single.. :)

Malam ini, malam ke 21 Ramadhan. Bererti, sudah 10 malam terakhir. Sudah tiba masa yang dinanti2kan mencari Lailatul Qadar. Untuk semua rakan2, harap tidak terlewat untuk saya mengucapkan selamat menghidupkan ramadhan.

Utk itu saya berhenti dahulu di sini.
Semoga selepas ini saya lebih rajin lagi.. :)
Salam hormat buat semua..