Blessing in Disguise

You know how difficult it is when you have all the spirit to move on and istiqamah (continuosly doing it), but somehow in the middle of the road you found some obstacles.. Like mine, perhaps it was the computer that suddenly kept on hanged, or the surprisingly unstable internet connection thru WiFi.. Wow, it is not easy to write. How does those mommies out there did it huh? Found my friends with juggling between office works, meetings and datelines, house works and handling children able to write much more plus their family trips, cooking, workshop etc. I am so envy with their strength hihihi

On February 3 years ago, i was assigned to assist on development of new business wing for an organization in East Coast region. New business start up that will be a pilot test for other branches. As earlier we found the local team in difficulties to make it move, so the CEO asked me whether any possibility for me to overseeing that project. Of course i have to get consent from my husband, and it was lucky that the place is nearby my husband's hometown - the parents in law house. So he said yes, and i gave condition to the organization it should be a max of 1 year and i shall be coming back after that. No staying there forever.

During that year, i travelled a lot from and to KL and KT. I frequently went for outstation in KL, well as you now..outstation means your time will be fully utilize at the office. I was in the office from 8.00am to 9.30pm every outstation day in KL. I barely had time to 'watch' my house in KL, i wont be able to cook, clean up, arrange things or even sweep the floor.. So, yeahhh i do missed our little house here a lot.

It was a long distance relationship, since my daughter and I were in KT and my husband was in KL. We met mostly on average of once in 5 weeks, and fill up those other days through phone calls and rarely videos as internet connection at my PIL was only 516kb. Often when we met, either one side of us will be exhausted due to long distance travelling. Imagine that the travel time by road was about  8 hours at that time. Even if i was the one coming to KL, i was already overwhelmed by many tasks that need to be completed at the office.

Blessing in Disguise.

I would say that as the parents, our daughter missed her dad the most. But she was loved more (less misbehave & mess making in front of the dad, thus less scolds haha) As a couple, it was the feeling of longing for each other. We quarrel or being in disagreement lesser (or almost none?) so in a bit of harmony life.. As a daughter in law and grand-daughter, we developed good relationship with not only the PIL but my husband's side of extended families.

Of course about the work experience. I learnt that if i am focus enough, with blessing from husband and family and of course with The Almighty's will.. The sky is only the beginning.. (hahaha!!)

Pray, Food, Medicine and Supplement

Continue from the previous posting..

I summarize it again in Bahasa now.. (for the purpose of sharing the info with those who search the net).

Emak saya telah mengalami pembedahan membuang sel-sel kulit mati di kaki berpunca dari kencing manis (diabetes). Asalnya hanyalah luka kecil tetapi dibiarkan berberapa minggu sehingga ditahan di wad selama 3 hari. Hasil pemantauan dan ubat-ubatan yang diberi, emak semakin elok. Tetapi seminggu kemudian keadaan semakin teruk. Emak dimasukkan ke wad semula kerana demam panas, kencing manis dan disyaki masalah jantung. Puncanya adalah kerana makanan2 tambahan MLM yang dibawa orang ke rumah (ku sudah tak percaya.. sila berhati2 kalau makanan MLM itu kata boleh ubat kencing manis, darah tinggi etc.. huhu).

5 hari di wad, emak saya telah dibedah sebanyak 2 kali dan disuntik insulin. Tetapi paras gula dalam darah masih lagi tinggi sekitar 20-17. Paling rendah turun ialah 17 dan kemudian naik semula. Untuk orang yang normal, kadar gula dalam darah adalah pada 4-8 sahaja (jika tidak silap saya).

Setelah melakukan beberapa penyelidikan, kami telah menjalankan 4 perkara kepada emak. Hasilnya, alHamdulillah. 2 hari selepas itu, paras gula sudah berkurangan dan berada di paras terkawal. Catatan hari ke2 adalah 9. Luka juga sudah semakin kering dan sel2 daging baru sudah menampakkan pertumbuhan . Hari ke 4, air bisa keluar dari kaki.. Hari ke-10, emak sudah dibenarkan keluar dari hospital… Itu semua kurang dari 2 minggu bilamana org2 lain yg saya jumpa ada yg terlantar sehingga 3 bulan di hospital dan membuat pembedahan berulang2 kali sebelum dapat sembuh..

4 things that we did to cure the problem: Pray, Food, Medicine and Supplement (Doa, Makanan, Ubat dan Makanan Tambahan).

Pray, I believe do not have to elaborate more. But, it is important. To have faith in your heart makes one feel calm to face the situation. Allah will give strength to all who is facing that, the family and the patient., InshaAllah…

Food.. this is the first thing we googled. What to eat and what to avoid… So here I share what my husband and I found on net:

Food to avoid: Elakkan:
1. All sweets and sugar (including honey) / Makanan Manis dan gula (termasuk madu)
2. Red meats / Daging Merah – lembu, kambing
3. High sugar contained fruits / Buah2an yang mempunyai kadar gula yang tinggi – rambutan, durian, anggur
4. Rice / Nasi – kuantiti 1- setgh senduk shj
5. White bread / Roti Putih
6. Fast food (say no to kfc, McD, pizza etc..)
7. Can drinks (air berkarbonat)
8. Ice-cream
9. Junk food
10. Chocolate

p/s: Salah satu makanan tambahan MLM itu mempunyai kandungan glucose (gula), sebab tu la tak jadi makin elok..tapi teruk

Food to eat more: Lebihkan makanan:
1. Green vegetable / Sayur2 hijau – terutamanya brokoli
2. High fibre food / Makanan berserat tinggi – oat, barley/barli
3. Protein/Soya-based food / makanan berasaskan kacang soya – soon, fucuk, tofu, tauhu
4. Deep Sea Fish / Ikan laut dalam
5. Shitake Mushroom / Cendawan hitam (perlu direndam dulu untuk melembutkan)
6. Herbs / Herba2
7. Plain water / Air kosong – sebaik2nya air zamzam

Rupa ikan dory selepas dinyahbekukan.. Defrost dory fish..

Sayur2 hijau

So, jadi lah resipi2 ciptaan sendiri untuk orang kencing manis seperti di bawah ini yang saya masak selama beberapa hari untuk emak:
1. Sup air fucuk, soon, kentang dan cendawan shitake (every day)
2. Brokoli dan cendawan shitake bersos tiram
3. Tofu kukus bersama brokoli dan cendawan shitake
4. Ikan Dory goreng tepung
5. Ikan Dory masak halia (sbb musim CNY dan tak boleh guna gula, gantikan dengan beberapa ulas limau mandarin.. rasanya not bad juga laa..hhehe)
6. Sayur kacang goreng
7. Sayur campur (kacang, cendawan shitake, lobak dan brokoli)



Yang ini salah satu cara masak tumis air ini.. http://kasihasakura.blogspot.com/2009/01/tumis-air-fucuk.html

Kalau cara saya:
1 ulas bawang kecil - dihiris
2 ulas bawang putih -dihiris
1-2 keping halia - dihiris
sedikit ikan bilis - ditumbuk

tumis bahan2 di atas sehingga garing/naik bau. Masukkan air.
Masukkan:

1 biji kentang dipotong 4
beberapa keping cendawan shitake
(kalau yg kering telah direndam dahulu selama 2-3 jam dan dihiris halus. kalau yg fresh, hiris halus aje)
fucuk (telah direndam dahulu dalam 10-15min)

Apabila kentang telah lembut, masukkan lobak yang telah dipotong serong/ brokoli.
Biar seketika. akhir sekali, masukkan sedikit garam dan soon (juga telah direndam seketika). kacau seketika dan tutup api.


Senang sahaja masak org sakit ni.. Cuma jgn letak gula. Sos, kicap dan sos tiram kalau boleh jgn letak atau kalau perlu letak sedikit sahaja.. So far feedback daripd abah, emak makan semua lauk habis.. kira ok la tu kan hahahha

Yang ketiga, medicine atau ubat2an.. Sila makan ubat yang disediakan doctor sahaja.. jgnla makan ubat2 lain sewaktu dgnnya waktu ini…

Supplement.. ok .. ini la yg saya buat. Kerana dua perkara, pertama kerana supplement ini terletak di bawah kategori makanan yang elok dimakan (sayur/vege and herba/herbs). Yg kedua, kerana hadis2 Rasulullah yang memuji makanan ini.. iaitu bahan dari pokok zaitun (pohon yang paling banyak keberkatan) dan biji hitam habbatus sauda (biji yang menyembuhkan segala penyakit kecuali maut/mati).. Mula2 beli dulu sebab teringin nak anak ku jadi cerdas.. ikut la petua2 mama darwisya/darwish.. Jadi, ku beli extract daun zaitun di sini ; dan minta kak Jawahir belikan minyak habbatus sauda gred A. Harga ekstrak daun zaitun ni di luar adalah RM109 kalau tak silap, tapi beli terus dari pengilang dapat la harga murah sedikit. Kalau sesape mahu, ku ada beberapa botol lagi beli byk haritu utk dpt harga murah + kasi kat beberapa org ahli keluarga.. bolehlah try test cuba.. hehe


Inilah ekstrak daun zaitun tu.. Nama jenama ni Olive Oleo. Yg sebelah tu ialah habbatus sauda (bentuk serbuk), ada jual di menara TM ni.. tak jumpa plak minyak nak beli..


Cara makannya ialah ekstrak daun zaitun dimakan satu sudu teh setiap kali selepas makan (3 kali sehari). Pada waktu malam selepas makan, minum satu sudu teh daun zaitun dicampur 3 titik minyak habbatus sauda.

Oh lupa pula, satu perkara lagi.. Ini terpulang kepada pesakit juga la.. Oleh kerana pembedahan, kaki tidak dapat bergerak seperti selalu. Oleh itu kaki kena diurut setiap hari dengan minyak panas, secara perlahan2 di betis, lutut dan paha supaya darah dapat mengalir dengan baik. Emak pun agak rajin berjalan perlahan2 mundar-mandir di keliling wad di waktu pagi dan petang.

Kita berusaha.. Allah yang menentukan. Alhamdulillah setakat hari ini emak dah boleh berjalan walaupun masih berulang2 alik ke hospital membuat 'dressing' / cucian di luka. Sudah 2 -3 minggu dan daging pun sudah banyak yg tumbuh.. Kalau ada sesapa ada masalah yg sama, cubalah yer.. inshaAllah.

A refreshing start for 2011

Wonder how long have i left this out until a friend of mine saw me online on YM yesterday and told me it was unbelievable to see me 'online'. She asked how do i do and what happened to my rusted blog. hahahah ok dear friend, thank you for your concern. i was too much adjusting myself in year 2010 that made me depressed and tensed at all time..

Now the starting of 2011, i keep on my mind since the last few weeks i want to be happy, productive, relax and feel great in the year of 2011.. Thinking about that, it does not seems to be that easy.. But, so far it seems so good. I hope this enthusiasm will continues for the whole year and years after..

So, what is the achievement so far?

First, i managed to change to template from a blank-what-she-is-trying-to-achieve to 'something'..at least at the moment.. just to keep the writing spirit alives.. (p/s: People, please say something to cheer me up! hahah)

Then, on my daughter.. This boolat little girl..

Picture of few months back

She turns 16 months and turned to be a soo manipulative girl and a drama queen. I mean, it is really a drama queen..

Picture of few days back

Still boolat, kan...

Third, on my master..
Alhamdulillah.. I received my MSc International Business scroll from UUM October last year..

At last.. it feels so sweet to attend that moment. Though it was raining non-stop from the day we went there till the day we came back, but at least our session was not being postponed like some unluckly fellow..

Ok.. that is all now for now.

A warm-up for the year..

Humaira

Anak ibu sudah berumur 8 bulan 3 minggu dan 3 hari hari ini.

Humaira tunggu ibu balik daripada kerja

Alhamdulillah, so far her development is so good.

Cumanya kadang2 terasa dia punya keinginan yang sangat kuat dan cepat untuk explore the world. Umur 3 bulan, Humaira sudah terlonjak2 minta diangkat untuk melihat keliling. Bila diletak dia menangis, bila diangkat dia berbunyi2 macam bercakap.. Umur 6 bulan setengah, sewaktu pergi makan di sebuah kedai Humaira memegang bekas sudu/garfu dan menterbalikkan keseluruhan isi dalamnya. Sewaktu umurnya 7 bulan, dan sehingga sekarang kerjanya di restoran adalah bermain sudu. Umur 8 bulan, Humaira cuba2 untuk makan sendiri. Yang berlaku akhirnya adalah bermain dengan makanan sendiri, habis seluruh tubuh dan skirt yang dipakai berlumur dengan bubur. Yang masuk mulut? Hanya suapan pertama dan kedua sahaja.. itupun sebab ibu yang suapkan.. huhuh

Humaira belum pandai merangkak. Walau sudah boleh duduk, dia malas nak bergerak sendiri. Semuanya dipanggil2 orang mengangkat.. Tetapi dia memang suka makan, dan merajuk bila kita makan tak bagi dia sama... Oh anakku yang bulat sekali...

"Ibu, saya sudah habis main dengan makanan... Ops, habis makan dah"

Bulan lalu Humaira tumbuh dua batang gigi hadapan bahagian bawah. Seminggu dua sebelumnya, agaknya kerana gatal gusi dia menggigit sahaja di sana sini. Penyebabnya – nipples cracked kedua2 belah sampai berdarah – even gunakan pam susu. Akhirnya gunalah tangan itupun tak boleh nak kumpul sebab ada darah bercampur2 juga. Kesian tengok dia merengek2 tidak dapat susu badan, menangis beria2 tetapi nak buat macamana mak dia pun sakit tak tahan dan takkan nak kasi air susu berdarah pula kan… Akhirnya dia redha juga kot.. malam ke-2 dan ke-3 tak merengek2 lagi.. lepas malam ke-4 , bila dah sembuh dan boleh beri semula secara terus, Humaira macam melepaskan gian..

"Ibu, saya demam. Tapi saya suka senyum kan ibu kan"

Minggu lepas Humaira demam panas. Panas sungguh. Terkejut juga rasa. Pukul 9 malam, bila periksa suhu badan Humaira 37.7 Celcius, kami berikan ubat demam. Pukul 2 pagi, terasa tangan panas sangat. Ibu bangun periksa suhu badan Humaira sudah lebih 39C. Ibu ambil tuala dan tuamkan badan Humaira, beri lebih air kosong dan susu badan. Sejam lepas itu suhunya sudah turun ke bawah 38C semula. Ingatkan esok pagi sempat la sebelum ke tempat kerja singgah sebentar berjumpa doctor. Pukul 5 pagi, sekali lagi suhu badan Humaira naik balik lebih 39C. Kejut Abah, dan kami pun bersiap2 membawa Humaira ke klinik. Keluar dari klinik, kami dengar azan subuh… Agaknya tidak dapat tidur lena malam itu, Humaira tidur sebaik sahaja sampai ke rumah.

Ibu terus bersiap2 ke tempat kerja. Kebetulan untuk 2 hari itu, isnin dan selasa ada mesyuarat penting dengan pihak atasan setiap pagi bagi 2 perkara berbeza. Jadinya tak dapatlah nak ambil cuti seluruh hari, nasib baik team partner memahami. Selepas waktu makan tengahari, ibu bawa Humaira balik untuk lihat sendiri keadaan dia. Lebih lega Humaira depan mata. Dan seperti biasa manjanya menjadi2 la.. Pantang nampak ibu bangun je, pasti merengek2. Dek kerana tak cukup tidur 2 malam berturut2, hari ke-3 ibu pulak yang tak boleh bangung waktu pagi. Yeahh akhirnya berehat sahaja di rumah sambil melihat budak kecil yang semakin sembuh itu.

Selang beberapa hari kemudian, kami lihat ada tunas 4 batang gigi hadapan bahagian atas pula nak keluar. Wahh cepat nya.. Agaknya itu lah sebab nak demam, nak dapat gigi-gigi baru.. patutlah, budak ni rajin betul bercakap. "Ab-bah" , panggil Humaira pagi2. "agigugugaga...", dia sudah bercerita pada Abahnya. "A-bu, bu" panggil Humaira. Sampai bersembur2 air liur sebut "Bu". Selagi tak menyahut, selagi tu dia panggil.. Humaira belum pandai sebut 'Ibu' betul2.. "Agigugugaga laala.." entah apa dia cerita dalam bahasa Jerman.. memang bunyi betul2 macam Jerman.

"Eh! Ada kamera?"

Semalam dia menjerit2 nak makan pasta beef chilies with coconut milk (pasta daging masak lemak cili api) di SweetChat Mid Valley. Bila diberi bubur ubi manis yang dilecek (sweet potatoes), dia geleng2 kepala sambil kata "na, na, na, na, na"... Aiks, sudah bijak membuat pilihan? Humaira, humaira... Kalau dah ada kaki ni entah apa pula ceritanya.

6 & 7 months

Nur Humaira
Esok Nur Humaira akan genap berusia 7 bulan..
Dia masih lagi anak manja ibu yang tidak boleh lihat ibunya hilang dari pandangan mata walaupun sekejap. Bila ibu ada di sekeliling, dia selalu akan menangis bagaikan dipukul waktu abah memegangnya walaupun abah tidak buat apa2. hai anak ibu seorang ini... tapi bila abahnya tidak kelihatan, sibuk memanggil nama abah (oh, yaa dia sudah pandai menyebut 'Ab-Bah' tetapi ibu menjadi ' 'i-bu atau selalunya berbunyi 'a-bu).

Yang pelik, bila ibu betul2 tidak berada di sekitar dan ditinggalkan dengan orang lain boleh pula dia buat hal sendiri.. isk isk isk...

Ini gambar humaira diambil sewaktu dia berusia 6 bulan, waktu ni kami sedang sibuk mencari lampu untuk rumah baru..

Botak sedikit.. rambut dicukur kali ke-2 sewaktu raya cina kerana 'cukur bantal' atau rambut tumbuh di sebahagian kepala sahaja..nampak macam sabut kelapa..

Beberapa kali cubaan mengambil gambar senyuman dia yang cukup sukar.. akhirnya berjaya :D

Pindah Rumah
2 minggu lepas kami telah berjaya mengangkut segala barang dari rumah lama ke rumah baru. Berpeluh2 juga la kiranya.. Skarang rumah masih dalam proses pengemaskinian dan rupanya sudah berubah sedikit baik dari warehouse ke rumah kongsi keh keh keh..

Housewarming? rumah kami memang terasa 'warm' di waktu pagi kerana bilik tidur utama betul2 mengadap matahari terbit.. ya, waktu pilih itu saya memang sengaja memilih matahari terbit dari tingkap bilik kerana saya sukakan waktu pagi.. tapi kini kena fikir2 juga untuk membeli langsir tebal (demi cik abang :P). Jadinya secara official belum terfikir la nak buat housewarming, tapi kalau nak dtg calling2 aje.. takde problem.. hehe


Ha ini gambar humaira dua-tiga hari yang lalu.. waktu pagi ibu sangat sibuk bersiap2 dia juga sibuk memanggil2.. anak ibu ini pun a morning person.. pagi2 sudah bangun daa banyak susah nak siap. jadi bagi melekakannya, inilah yg abah dia buat... jadi sarkis sekejap hehe

Cries

My dear daughter turned 4 months old yesterday.
I still have some (or is it often) tough time yet with her.
I thought that when she grows up, it will be much easier to handle her. Now that we realize that she is so demanding too.. Is that normal for a 4 months old baby to 'instruct' us to follow her wants and cries out loud if we do not fulfill the request? These few days it seem that she needs to cry every time before she can goes sleep.. Few hours before, she requested me to hold her up and walked around the house. She will cry out loud if i put her down, or i sit down holding her. After few hours doing it, i'm really tired and cant hold her weight anymore.. Oh gosh.. and then she started to sing her song along with the anugerah juara lagu show on the TV. he he suddenly i felt funny, laughed a little and smile a lot while watching her cry. Am i 'not centered' @ crazy for being like that?

Here is her picture tonight after all the cries..
She has been sleeping for more than 2 hours and a half now.. with a minimal movement. amazingly. hehe i told my friend, there is only one reason that we can stand all the tantrums all this while.. only one out of 99 'pusing kepala' things that being part and parcel with our lives.. that make us cant wait to see her again after a long working day despite of expected terrible events that awaited us.. That is because of this:


Her smiles!! So cute, isnt it.. :)
so, this is how it feels being a parent? hehe

hurm...

These three months have been a very hectic months for me.. I am still adjusting my life with the new person in our life and new responsibility. At the same time, i was trying to cope with the long abandon tasks in the office, my master's class and now needs to complete two thesis within a limited period of time. Not to mention the household chores that seems like forever to complete. Perhaps I'm in too much stress that the week after raya haji my milk expressed dropped from a good 8-oz per pumping session to 5-oz.

Then came the baby side of story.. that she is too attached too me, wanting me to always be next to her at all time. i read in one of the parenthood article that suggesting writes about everyday parenting life and feeling although if i think that the feelings are not good. i don't know whether i should or should not follow the suggestion. but i think motherhood is quite tough for me. (huuhuh baru anak sorang.... dah cenggini.. kalah org anak tiga empat ni.. )

She seems to be so adorable when she smiles, or laughs.. when she did not make any fuss.. when she sleeps so peaceful. but when it comes to about to sleeping time, she will throw her tantrum that makes me do not know what else to do. we need to rock her to sleep, on our hands.. she even wanting me to feed her while stand up and rock her. so that is three requests at one time? the case is even worst when we used 'buaian', the thing that almost makes me be not in a good mood with the parent.. i have to admit that i was really under pressured not to apply the normal ordinary ways of upbringing the child in our tradition/community. i never thought it is going to be this difficult to make it understand that we want to raise our child in our own way. the only thing that i am still manage to hold up to now is to exclusively breastfeeding my baby...

not to mention that she will be ok at one day, and not ok the following days. she seems to be good when i see her today, and suddenly crying non stop , requests my full attention when i want to complete my assignments or when i thought of fulfilling my pumping sessions. in the end, when she rests herself quietly i'll be too tired for anything and have myself a sleep too..

despite of at times when i feel like putting her under the pillow because of the irritating crying sounds, or hopeless when we do not know what else to do as everything has been in check - the pampers, the room temperature, the body temperature, the hunger, the usually rocking... when i feel like crying to see her crying and i am not able to do anything to calm her down.. thinking again that perhaps she is also not feeling comfortable and still adjusting herself in our world.. we just told ourselves to be patience about it.. and yes, i said a lot of prays in my heart whenever i try to calm her down especially during my confinement.. takut gila meroyan plak..

when i think again my journey with her in my tummy, the kicking, the movement.. when we come back from work and see how happy she is to seeing us again... when we wake up in the morning to see her sleeping or smiling next to us.. when she tries to talk to us with her 'agugu', 'ottei', uu, aa sounds.. then i guess it is not a big deal to handle her. at least she does at times making our life merrier. hehe

some people said that when you have a tough time during the early days of the child, that child will be a good and easy to handle child when she/he grows up.. aminn.. harap2 nye la kan kan kan..