berubah

seseorang kawan membuat kenyataan begini kepada en suami..

"ika tu dah berubah. dulu brutal sket , sekarang dah ada anak dah jadi emotional "

apekah benar penyataan ini..
huargh huargh huargh..

ya buat kawan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa.. tiba2 i ternangis2 terharu peluk u all jangan la terkejut ku buang tabiat.. ahhaha

ok.. ok.. saya behave.. (dah lama tak buang tebiat rupanya ehhehe)

p/s: ku masih tak sempat nak update sgt blog ini... nampaknya cuti rehat dari jadi blogger tegar masih bersambung lagi.. adoi la bila nak habis buat thesis ni hahah

Pindah

Dah lama tak dpt jenguk blog ni..
Sekarang tinggal 2 semester aje utk Master.. 4 subjek dlm kelas, 1 thesis..
Bukan tak sudi nak update, dalam kepala asyik terfikir aje.. Tapi ada lagi perkara2 yg penting pun tak sempat nak dikemaskinikan.. uhuks.. betapakah tak bijaknya mengendalikan masa..

Masa mula2 pindah ke ibu pejabat dulu, dok tingkat 22.. lepas tu (lepas pindah sana sini sinun) masuk balik, ke tingkat 44.. tak lama ke tingkat 51.. la ni baru2 ni kena pindah lagi plak ke tingkat 7.. kira2 semua 4 jenis sektor lif ke pejabat dah digunakanlah ni.. brg2 pun tak habis kemas lagi.. terbiar gitu aje.. ehehe.. So faham2 la.. kalau kat luar pun mcm tak terurus dah, ntah cemana nak urus yg kat sini plak.. :P

anyway time kasih la bagi yg sudi dtg melawat.. sila datang lagi ya lain kali :)

Malas

Cuti lama.. Dari lepas Krismas hingga semalam...
Dan hari ini, terasa malas untuk masuk ke pejabat semula..
Kalaulah tidak kerana tugas dan tanggungjawab yang masih perlu dipikul, mungkin sudah menyambung lagi cuti... ehheheh
:p

Mencari Makna

[1] My Dear Friend
I have been receiving quite a number of question asking me who is her. Maybe to the fact that most of people here are somewhat related to each other, having someone considered 'new' to their eyes will spark some interest. he he he.. I guess it is the time for me to introduce another friend of mine to you all.

Cik As.
(Minta kebenaran ya..cik punya badan, promote sket:P)

We met in 2003/2004 (i cant remember the year) in a routine of 3 months-once- a-week-class of interfaith class. Cik As is not a person from the same school, university, company or home town with me.

We strengthen our friendship relationship through enhancement classes, chatting, changing of ideas on net, towards blogging. I was so excited and happy (and still actually) when she informed her wish to join bloggers, as i think she has a lot in her mind that is valuable to be shared. I am never wrong on this part actually, because (now it seems i declared it publicly:P) i love the way she writes and present her writings. one of the person that makes me enjoy reading her words, and always waiting for her updates.

In a way, i observed she and Pn Hany shared the same value. Who said engineers cannot express their feeling well, because these two ladies tell they are different from the generalization assumption. Oh, yes ladies. I also think that you too can be good friends. ;)

Lain2 tu rasanya , biarlah cik punya badan yang ceritakan. Rajin2lah melawat dia di situ.. Ya Cik As, kenal2kanlah diri.. mereka semua ni peramah. tak makan org. eheheh

[2] Mencari Makna Dalam Diri
"Tidak dijadikan jin dan manusia kecuali untuk beribadat kepada Allah SWT"

The last few days i felt like i just awaken from a long dream. I knew that i was not dreaming all this time, i knew i was awake. It is just that suddenly you have this kind of feeling, and it goes like *blink*. And i started to ask question that i have not asked myself for years. "What am i?".

I am lost.

I guess i am going to start my journey soon, to find my way, to search for myself.
I hope i will find my destination soon.

Mencari makna dalam diri. Mencari makna dalam jiwa.



[3] Alert
How do i supposed to know if someone needs my update or if it is ok i don't update for a while? Just like i used to be... Sometimes i will ignore my own blog visiting others blogs, one day they do not update their blogs and i said if they are all right, when later i figured out people indirectly in their emails or conversations or sms inform me if i have 'retired' from blogging. The shoutbox has been blocked. I have no intention to replace it at the moment. So, in case i have been idle for a long time and you wish to see some updates would you please shout at my comment box and i will try to scratch my mind to share anything with you?

[4] Updates on Life
I will be having a business workshop one-week next week in Putrajaya, going to stay there through out the week... Really hoping i will be able to motivate myself back after the event. So, any good suggestion to do there? :D

Macam-macam

[1] Hampir Kemalangan

(gambar hiasan)

Pagi tadi sewaktu melintas jalan menuju ke LRT, saya hampir2 'accident'. Sebuah motor tiba2 memecut di waktu saya hampir tiba ke hujung jalan, bilamana motor di hadapannya sudah pun berhenti/memperlahankan enjin.

Apalagi, hampir berlaga kami. Saya terkena di bahu, nasib baik ada lemak-lemak yang melindungi tidak ada apa2 berlaku pada saya. Motor tersebut terjatuh dan terbalik..

Sedikit sakit di bahu dan belakang lengan kiri, tapi saya berlalu pergi sahaja. Sudahlah orang sangat ramai sewaktu itu, saya tidak tahu apa yang berlaku kepada si pembawa motor itu.
Setakat ini, kecederaan luar tidak ada. Tetapi kecederaan dalaman dan kecederaan-kecederaan yang lain tidak dapat dikenalpasti.. huhuhuh

Bersalahkah saya pergi begitu sahaja...


[2] Penyeluk Saku

Jiwa masih berdebar-debar di dalam sewaktu menaiki LRT. Sampai di Ampang Park, tiba2 seorang pakcik di belakang saya menjerit "Hoi!" Lepas itu diikuti suara seorang perempuan "sH*t!" dan kemudian orang bergegas keluar diikuti suara pakcik itu sekali lagi "cepat! Cepat!" . Rupanya seorang lelaki telah membuka beg perempuan itu, dan mengeluarkan dompet dari beg tangannya. Saya yang masih terpinga2 kerana kejadian awal, jadi sedikit tergamam dengan kejadian kemudian. Orang ramai terpinga2 juga.

Tidak tahu apa jadi pada perempuan itu, tapi saya berharap dia sempat mengejar si penyeluk saku itu , mendapatkan balik purse tangannya serta penyeluk saku itu ditangkap polis..




Macam-macam hari ini..

dalam dilema

Dah lama sangat tertangguh.
Kawan-kawan pun dah ramai lepas. ramai juga yang dah hampir lepas, di hujung2 semester.
Saya pula masih lagi belum dapat membuat keputusan. yang mana satu perlu dipilih. sudah makan tahun kini. boleh bantu?

I cannot make my mind which and where to go.
Considering my early degree was majoring in Economics, as where my interest lies i wish to further deepen my knowledge in this area. However, i have search the courses offered in Local Universities in this area does not interest me. Furthermore, in this field it is better (or best) if one degree i do it in local and other one in oversea (or vice versa) for exposure and better understanding of the world as a whole.

Most of the overseas universities offer better specialization in this area. Either it is MSc (Master of Science) or MA (Master of Art). I wish to try, but then here go other limitations: (1) the tuition fees and costs of living - i need to earn a scholarship or loan. (2) in the case of scholarship, most organizations do not offer it for my course; (3) my result was not that highly flying colours when i was in my first degree; (4) i may be afraid of living alone somewhere unknown with unknown people.

But still i never stop having interest in this field.

Then most people suggested MBA. The best thing on MBA is it is the certificate that allows you to go higher in your corporate carrier. but one thing, i already had my BBA and having it back on my master it doesn't give much input (and satisfy my soul) especially i frequently discussing and reading all things regarding those related to the syllabus in this course. i don't want to feel like wasting my money; even some people said what matter the most is the certificate. After all, i am not keen in stepping high in the corporate ladder.

And now i have another option - master (MSc) in International Business. Well somehow it is related to my current job, but the people inside are people from my offices and colleagues. and i have no idea what to do if i took this Master and when i complete this Master. It is offered by collaboration with local university in northern, i do not know the style of teaching yet or what input but somehow the syllabus is different from my BBA.. but in here i will be using my own pocket money ..

Now, i do not know should i:
(1) accept the 3rd option and enroll in the class which will start in June (due date is in middle of april) ; or
(2) do the 2nd option instead for better carrier profile; or
(3) wait until i get the opportunity to do my interest in option #1; or
(4) do nothing in furthering my study, proceed with my life with some other things.

at this point of time, i suddenly cannot analyze my strength and weakness; cant even decide; cant think. those in local universities, i will need to use my own pocket money in which it is really hard to decide so that i dont make the wrong decision and turn up half way after spending thousands of ringgit.

Perhaps, you can help me?