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Doa for a friend - Hany Fariza

Dear friends
If any of you are still not aware that Hany is currently warded at Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Klang. She is still unconscious since yesterday morning. As described by her husband, she was suddenly collapsed at home. So let's pray together that she will recover soon and be able to take care of her two-weeks old son...

Amiin.

Labels: friend, life, pray

posted by ieka @ 4:02 PM Comments: 2

hurm...

These three months have been a very hectic months for me.. I am still adjusting my life with the new person in our life and new responsibility. At the same time, i was trying to cope with the long abandon tasks in the office, my master's class and now needs to complete two thesis within a limited period of time. Not to mention the household chores that seems like forever to complete. Perhaps I'm in too much stress that the week after raya haji my milk expressed dropped from a good 8-oz per pumping session to 5-oz.

Then came the baby side of story.. that she is too attached too me, wanting me to always be next to her at all time. i read in one of the parenthood article that suggesting writes about everyday parenting life and feeling although if i think that the feelings are not good. i don't know whether i should or should not follow the suggestion. but i think motherhood is quite tough for me. (huuhuh baru anak sorang.... dah cenggini.. kalah org anak tiga empat ni.. )

She seems to be so adorable when she smiles, or laughs.. when she did not make any fuss.. when she sleeps so peaceful. but when it comes to about to sleeping time, she will throw her tantrum that makes me do not know what else to do. we need to rock her to sleep, on our hands.. she even wanting me to feed her while stand up and rock her. so that is three requests at one time? the case is even worst when we used 'buaian', the thing that almost makes me be not in a good mood with the parent.. i have to admit that i was really under pressured not to apply the normal ordinary ways of upbringing the child in our tradition/community. i never thought it is going to be this difficult to make it understand that we want to raise our child in our own way. the only thing that i am still manage to hold up to now is to exclusively breastfeeding my baby...

not to mention that she will be ok at one day, and not ok the following days. she seems to be good when i see her today, and suddenly crying non stop , requests my full attention when i want to complete my assignments or when i thought of fulfilling my pumping sessions. in the end, when she rests herself quietly i'll be too tired for anything and have myself a sleep too..

despite of at times when i feel like putting her under the pillow because of the irritating crying sounds, or hopeless when we do not know what else to do as everything has been in check - the pampers, the room temperature, the body temperature, the hunger, the usually rocking... when i feel like crying to see her crying and i am not able to do anything to calm her down.. thinking again that perhaps she is also not feeling comfortable and still adjusting herself in our world.. we just told ourselves to be patience about it.. and yes, i said a lot of prays in my heart whenever i try to calm her down especially during my confinement.. takut gila meroyan plak..

when i think again my journey with her in my tummy, the kicking, the movement.. when we come back from work and see how happy she is to seeing us again... when we wake up in the morning to see her sleeping or smiling next to us.. when she tries to talk to us with her 'agugu', 'ottei', uu, aa sounds.. then i guess it is not a big deal to handle her. at least she does at times making our life merrier. hehe

some people said that when you have a tough time during the early days of the child, that child will be a good and easy to handle child when she/he grows up.. aminn.. harap2 nye la kan kan kan..

Labels: breastfeed, children, life, parenting, psychology

posted by ieka @ 4:40 PM Comments: 5

Akhirnya

[1] Hadiah Ramadhan
ALhamdulillah.. akhirnya semalam Abahnya sudah membawa pulang surat beranak dia.. dan secara rasminya dia sudah bernama, menggantikan segala nama panggilan 'sayang', ' baby', 'adik', 'anak ibu', cucu nenek etc...

Walaupun terkejut tiba2 kena bersalin awal 3 minggu (sepatutnya due date 26hb September), dengan pelbagai perkara belum lagi tersedia.. tetapi syukur takde masalah sgt untuk melahirkan dia..

Jadi secara rasminya.. memperkenalkan ahli keluarga baru kami..


Rupa siapa ek? Yg pasti pipi dia memang bulat :))

p/s: Time kasih shelley sbb tolong announced utk kite.. hehe

[2] Syawal Yang Menjelang Tiba
Alhamdulillah.. walaupun sarat mengandung dan hanya menghitung hari, dapat juga berpuasa selama 17 hari (hari yg kena masuk wad masih lagi berpuasa dan berjaya habiskan sehingga petang itu).. Kire2 bolehlah juga beraya kan :p

Untuk itu dikesempatan ini, saya dan keluarga ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidilfitri kepada semua sahabat yang mengenali diri kami serta para pengunjung blog ini. Maaf zahir batin atas segala kekhilafan diri. Moga2 kita dapat bertemu lagi dalam bulan yang diberkati ini di tahun akan datang.

Kalau ada yang datang ke Melaka, jemput2lah singgah bertandang ke rumah. Walau takde persiapan istimewa sgt memandangkan masih berpantang, inshaAllah air dan kuih tu boleh dihidangkan :D

Salam hormat dan semoga bergembira di hari lebaran di samping mereka yang tersayang.

Labels: life, pregnancy, raya, Special Days

posted by ieka @ 11:56 PM Comments: 8

Dup Dap...

Dulu pun selalu tertanya2 mcmana org boleh muntah2, mcmana boleh rasa nak muntah, apakebendanamanya 'morning sickness' ni.. Sekarang pun saya faham.. hehehe

Ok berkenaan ayat di atas.. secara pemahaman saya ianya adalah kerana pada waktu ini berlakunya proses yang sangat laju (rapid?) di dalam tubuh seorang perempuan itu untuk proses kejadian manusia. Jadinya sel2 tubuh badan walaupun tanpa disedari sebenarnya memerlukan tenaga untuk proses2 itu. Mcm mesin perlukan minyak, walaupun kita hanya perasan mesin tu bergerak tapi tak perasan keadaan minyak yang membantu dalam menggerakkan mesin itu. Jadi proses2 ini mengurangkan tenaga yang ada pada tubuh manusia itu, tambah2 lagi ada bahagian2 mineral tertentu yang digunakan lebih banyak berbanding lain2.. Muntah2 itu pun sbb perubahan hormon badan yang berlaku dengan sangat cepat, jadi tubuh tak sempat nak 'adjust accordingly to the changes'.

Tenaga saya terasa berkurangan amat banyak .. bukan takat tinggal separuh, rasanya selalu sahaja tinggal suku dari kebiasaan.. mula2 dulu kuat2kan diri juga, tapi bila ada kawan pesan jangan paksa2 diri sangat nanti boleh pengsan.. saya sedikit cuak, tidak tahu boleh begitu pesannya.. ada org ckp 'it is a matter of psychology' tapi yang ini saya dah cuba juga utk 'menipu' diri yang saya boleh dan takde masalah sebenarnya.. dan akhirnya saya terkulai layu di hujung katil he he he.. takleh pakai teori tu nampaknya.. Cuma takdelah melayan perasaan amat2.. Kalau boleh buat, buat sikit2..tak boleh rehat dulu2.. nanti2 cuba lagi kan..

Trimester pertama.. bulan pertama saya ingat saya akan OK mcm statistik 5% perempuan yang bernasib baik.. tiba2 pada bulan kedua, alahan menjadi2.. kelakar juga sbb saya akan muntah2 bukan setakat salah makan, tapi kalau basuh pinggan mangkuk, basuh baju hatta melipat baju sekali pun.. pelik, tak kasi mengemas kah.. akhirnya dok je la terbaring.. minyak angin mmg setiap masa ada di mana2.. kat rumah satu, dlm kereta satu, kat ofis satu, dlm handbag satu.. wahhh untung tokei minyak angin time ni..

org cakap selalunya lepas 14 minggu (trimester kedua) dah ok dah.. punyalah tidak sabar saya ingin menjejakkan kaki ke situ.. tambah2 dlm belas2 minggu itu tiba2 saya muntah teruk tak berhenti2 sampaikan rasa mcm ..err.. nak masuk hospital aje. ehhehe setiap kali makan akan muntah, kira2 dlm masa 48 jam saya muntah berbelas2 kali termasuk kena bangun waktu tidur dlm masa 6 jam muntah 4 kali.. masa tu pulak tgh pergi team building utk 3 hari 2 malam.. akhirnya saya tidur lebih banyak dlm bilik dari ikut aktiviti mereka.. kesian kawan sebilik, bila bilik air bau muntah aje..

bila masuk musim ke-dua.. oh oh oh..rupanya belum selesai lagi... cuma dah berkurangan sedikit, badan pun takdelah selemah2nya.. dan dah beransur2 boleh buat kerja2 rumah semula.. muka saya sedikit serabut masa mengandung ni.. (oh, rindukan wajah2 lama ku yang comel itu.. heheh) maklumlah takleh sebarang letak kat muka ni.. bau2 aje kalau silap alamat memang lembik la lepas tu keluar masuk bilik air.. tak termasuk berapa kali tukar sabun mandi, ubat gigi, bedak2.. ingat time2 cenggini kalau ada bau yg bukan2 ya Allah rasa mcm nak lompat terjun bgn aje.. itu termasuklah bau2 masakan.. masa ni juga dah kenalpasti makanan2 berpotensi utk mengubati dan menambah parah situasi.. jadinya sudah lama tak rasa mcmana rasanya daging ayam itu.. saya ingat, satu waktu dahulu bahawa ayam goreng panas2 mmg sedap kan.. kurma ayam, ayam masak lemak cili api.. uhuks.. kicap, segala jenis sos berwarna perang dan coklat termasuk sos tiram.. coklat (uhukss my favourite!!!).. segala makanan masam termasuk buah oren.. cheese.. segala fastfood dari semurah2 harga sampai semahal2 harga (burger tepi jalan sampai carls junior semua takleh you, bau pizza esp. cheese + cendawan itu sungguh memualkan isk).. itu semua adalah antara yg saya fikir apakah saya boleh makan semula selepas ini..

akhir2 bulan ke-6 saya dapati alergik makanan ini berkurangan.. senarai2 tegar di atas masih terpakai.. hahahah tetapi punya sedikit tenaga lebih dari biasa.. dan masa ini saya mula2 dah beli barang2 baby sikit demi sikit.. baru je ok sikit, tiba2 dah masuk 7 bulan.. lepas 28-minggu perkembangan bayi lebih cepat dan berat mereka pun bertambah lebih banyak.. masa ni terasa tiba2 berat bayi itu.. dan dah susah nak tidur, tak cukup tenaga balik.. bagi yg takde pengalaman, bayangkan korang ada beg galas yang diletakkan sebiji buah tembikai seberat 1kg dan bawa setiap masa , mesti akan terasa penat kan kalau lama2.. jadi lebih kurang begitulah ceriteranya..

dan kini..tup tup.. alamak tinggal sebulan lagi sebelum tarikh akhir? banyak lagi tak habis membaca ni.. banyak lagi tak buat rasanya ni.. cepatnya masa berlalu... dan jantung pun berdenyut2 selalu.. dup dap dup dap... Moga Allah permudahkan perjalanan ini.. Amiin..

Labels: life, pregnancy, question, Special Days

posted by ieka @ 1:46 AM Comments: 4

Alien

I'm back.
For a while.

I know .. I know.. I have not been very good in updating my blog anymore. Not after I were married. Where were I all this while? Do you believe me if I said I were abducted by an alien and put on hold for months? Well, do believe me..
When I first encountered the existence of the alien, I thought I will be intact but it remained temporary only as later I was strike by the sickness. I figured out that the alien has implanted on me a special devise that instructs me to follow the rules and regulations under the nation of outer space. There goes all the Dos and Don’t list. No fast foods, no soy ketchup, no bad smells, no chicken, no cooking, no house cleaning, no..no..no.. Whenever I tried to break the rules, the sky will suddenly change and I see lightning coming towards me. Later, I’ll be blank and toilet will be the next top destination to be visited.

Sometimes, I asked for the favour. Who knows, the alien will allows me to break the rules once in a while. I will be really2 begging for it, or gives the reasoning in a soft voice (of course I am doing it with a sincere heart.. you know, the alien can even detect whether I really meant for it or just a sweet talker). At a certain time, when i was lucky i'll get it my way. But at most time, you can guess it..that i dont get it my way... not anymore.

As the arrival of the alien in our life were although not plan in the first place, but anticipated. My husband was earlier being freaked with what happened to me, perhaps he did not understand how complicated it is. So, I negotiated with the alien perhaps we should give him a dose or two of what I am having. He did, was injected with the dose, only a mild one and he looked terrible for a week or two. Ha ha ha . Opss.. I mean I should be thankful he understood the situation better now, and has been very supportive to me. Thank you, dear :p

Oh, don’t get me wrong. I love the alien anyway. I am so used to having it near to me. I think the alien loves me too… especially after the incident. Have you encountered a situation where you were having a bad dream and suddenly become half awaken, half asleep? You seems to be awake from your sleep, but seems to still have part of the bad dream.. That is when you can’t move your body or talk, but already half conscious. I was making funny sounds, actually asking for help from my husband to help me fully awake. It was then I felt the alien in it soft movement moved around me as if worry for me, and tried to help me become fully conscious. How sweet... I felt touched with that ‘wonderful’ gesture.


So..you will be thinking when the alien be coming back home? I do not have the exact answer, perhaps earlier or perhaps later than the tentative date. I was informed that the date will be few days after Hari Raya.. Oh, thinking about that we thought of celebrating Hari Raya this time in KL only. Who knows, in case of emergency the road to the hospital is clear on that day. Only then, we should pray that the doctors do not clear their offices also...

Labels: freak, great, life, psychology, sky, star

posted by ieka @ 3:04 PM Comments: 4