Monday, October 30, 2006

Salam Aidilfiitri

I hope it is not too late for me to wish all of you selamat hari raya aidilfitri. Maaf zahir batin atas segala salah dan silap terkasar bahasa dan laku.

I'm back to office already.
But today am strunggling to write an essay on career plan and ambitions.
Sounds not so good, need to polish my writting skills...
Maybe i should reduce wathcing TV and start reading back all the economics journals... huuhuh tak tercapailer hasrat di hati kalau gini...

dah gelap..masa utk pulang.
saya dah blank hari ini...

Friday, October 13, 2006

Balik Kampung...

Balik kampung...wohooho balik kampung..

saya dah buat ramai tense hari ni bile mereka tahu saya dah mula bercuti..
dan hanya akan balik selepas cuti raya..
ehhehe
tapi.. saya masih lagi kat ofis pada jam 4.45pm ni.. :(
sbb tgh tunggu kek besday saya sendiri (yg obvisouly saya sendiri beli :P)
ok kek dah hampir sampai.. untuk itu sampai jumpa lagi..
selamat berpuasa!! :P

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Ramadhan 19th: alHamdulillah

Alhamdulillah..
- Perkara pertama yang terdetik di hati saya bila pertama sekali membuka mata. Betapa Allah telah memberikan sekian banyaknya nikmat dan masa untuk saya pada kehidupan ini.

Dalam perjalanan tadi, tiba2 saya teringatkan teman2 lama di Kampus dulu. Mereka yang telah bekerja bersama2 saya, yang menjadi anak-anak buah saya dalam aktiviti kampus. Alhamdulillah saya fikir betapa beruntungnya saya dapat mereka yang komited dan sanggup bersama2 saya.

Mungkin saya pernah menjadi seorang ketua, dan mungkin saya bukahlah seorang ketua yang baik. Ada janji2 yang saya terkilan tidak dapat tunaikan, samada untuk peserta2 program saya atau untuk committees saya.

APa yang diberikan kepada saya membuatkan saya sentiasa ingat bahawa bukan mudah menjadi seorang ketua. dan ketua selalu perlu membuat keputusan - the best they think will benefits all. Dulu saya tidak penalize orang atas kesalahan mereka-dan penjelasan yang baik telah diberi, tapi once they started to create 'havoc' - saya akan menjadi keras terhadap mereka.. apa2 pun yg terjadi saya tidak akan memberikan apa2 sokongan kepada mereka.. Ada sedikit unsur emotional, tapi saya tak usik org dulu kan:D

Saya pasti ada juga kata2 saya yang agak tegas dan critical. kalau ada mereka yang terasa dengan saya, dan mereka ada membaca tulisan2 ini saya minta maaf setulus hati. Tugas dan tanggungjawab yang diberikan kepada saya membuatkan saya perlu jadi 'keras' dan tegas, demi mempertahankan apa yang sepatutnya. Tapi saya pasti mereka juga dapati saya boleh menjadi kawan yang baik(kan kan :P)..

Terima kasih yang tak terhingga kerana selalu bersama2 saya, menyokong dan membantu saya. terima kasih terutamanya kepada College COmmittees 2000/2001; MMU Run Committees (Student Integration Program 2000); College Festival 2001.

Ada orang kata saya suka imbas sejarah.. Mungkin tak bagus, pada mereka? Entahlah, sebab kadang2 sejarah membuatkan saya lebih berhati2 di masa depan. Sejarah membuatkan saya belajar byk perkara, dan tidak melakukan perkara2 yang tidak sepatutnya lagi. Saya cuba, sekurang2nya untuk jadi lebih baik. Insha-Allah.

Apa2 pun, terima kasih atas ucapan selamat yang diberikan. :) Selamat hari lahir juga untuk Zarid dan juga Momay (Hajar). :)

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Ramadhan 17th: Standby Team

Isn't it the Day the first sentences of alQuran came to Rasullullah SAW? And it is already 17th-Day. How time flies so fast... When i heard what Prophet SAW said about how much people wish the whole year is Ramadhan if they knew what lies beneath, i think i would wish the same.. for years already... Because this is the month and the time when i don't have to face with terrible nightmares that wake me up at the middle of the night with fast heart beat.. Because this is the month i do not feel 'afraid' of those unseen things.. or feel it existences. Because this is the month i feel relieve in my soul and the month when i feel so peaceful at my heart. AlHamdulillah i can still be in this Ramadhan. Really hope that i will be able to do better before the end of Ramadhan. Insha-Allah.

Another gonna-be-controversial remarks for today..

They are going to go for picketing this evening… Just came back from Urgent Meeting; and all the axe-kutip have to standby at centers. I? Not going to say anything much. Told already there might be a ‘riot’, rite? Oh, as being informed and instructed.. I won’t say ‘no comment’, instead all the responses will be answered by our respective management group. So, inline with what I vowed and signed to become an employee of my company – I’ll keep the story to myself and the staff of this company.

For those who think the picket will be called back.. I don't think so. They are very firm about this.

And if u wish to talk to me, no problem. I’ll be here at the office until late evening (not night ok) .. Mehlah bukak puasa sama2 dengan saya di sini, jangan segan bawa makanan sekali. hehehe Oh before I forget, sorry to all who invited me for berbuka puasa, I can’t make it. :) Insha-Allah we’ll meet at some other time.


Other things? Let see if I have spare time to talk to the computer this evening…

Friday, October 06, 2006

12th Ramadhan: LRT = Bas Mini Alaf 21?

Ada orang ingin saya menceritakan kisah pagi tadi. Kisah 3 jam di LRT baru sampai ke ofis.
ntahler..saya tak larat nak cerita balik.. cuma penat jugakler tukar train smapai tujuh kali.. 7 kali diulang. pagi2 tgk org dah penuh kat luar kawasan.. ada seorg pemandu bas beritahu, masalah sama berlaku lagi - train tak nampak dlm screen. dah tunggu lama kat luar ni.. dekat sejam saya agak2 dah ok, masukler ke dalam... cerita naik train la ni..

Tren 1: Dr setiawangsa patah ke wangsa maju
Tren 2: Tukar train gi ke tmn melati..
Tren 3: Kemudian tukar lagi train. dr tmn melati ke terminal putra, patah balik lalu tmn melati terus ke wangsa maju.
Tren 4: Kat wangsa maju kena tukar train lagi ke setiawangsa (balik!)
Tren 5: Dr setiawangsa sampai ke KLCC tukar train lagi.. Kat sini salah plak annoucement..diorang sudah terbalikkan train ke arah kelana jaya (which is selatan) dan terminal putra (which is utara).. tapi saya stick je dgn annoucement dlm train supaya naik train seterusnya ke kelana jaya..
Tren 6: Naik tren dari KLCC ke Masjid Jamek..turun lagi
Tren 7: Dr masjid jamek..dan akhirnya baru sampai ke Kerinchi..

Dan saya memang lewat amat ke ofis.. sampai ofis saya separuh nak pengsan, nak ckp dan senyum pun tak larat.. Akhirnya pukul satu (waktu rehat) saya tertidur.. alhamdulillah dah ok balik.. apa2 pun nasib baik saya tak keseorangan dlm 'perjalanan' sejauh itu.. kalau tak saya lebih tense..hehehe itulah Encik Sam dan jugak Cik Haineyy.. hohoho mekasihler sanggup tunggu sama2 naik..

Cerita kelakar nak kongsi ialah..since at most time only one platform yg berfungsi, jadi setiap kali tren datang petugas akan menjerit train tersebut utk ke arah mana supaya orang tak tersi;ap masuk.. "Gombak, gombak, gombak" (refer to terminal putra); and then the next train "Setiawangsa, setiawangsa"; and everyone was like "ha setiawangsa, masuk masuk.."

And of course, as usuall, kepala dah start menerawang.. If in the earlier age of 70s and 80s, Bas Mini was the main trasport until people complaint about overloaded passengers, it seems to be the same for LRT (Putra esp). And after about 30 years, we have the new kind of "Bas Mini"; with no-more-space-to-squeeze-in in the morning.. (kalau tak caya..korang yg bawak kete jee or yg luar KL tu tryler dtg KL hari bekerja jam 7.15 - 9.00 pagi mesti faham). Imagine, how would it be in the next 30 years? MM..mungkin mcm hainey ckp, die jadi 2 tingkat plak.. hehehehehe

(boleh tak kalau cerita ni takde penghujung, saya gantung aje kat sini? :P )
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~tamat~

Friday, September 29, 2006

6th Ramadhan

AlHamdulillah. dah 6 hari berpuasa..
Ramadhan ke-4, berbuka puasa bersama Laili and Siha di MidValley.. Adhoc punya cerita.. perancangan dlm masa 1 jam, secara kebetulan jer... kat sana mcm2 cerita plak.. sebabnya.. sorang terlupa keluarkan duit, sorang lagi tertinggal beg duit dlm kereta..so sorang kena dahulukan.. Lepas berbuka, kami pergi tgk2 buku di MPH. tapi spot saya (dan siha..kerana kami jalan berdua..laili dah hilang entah ke mana) saya nampak cermin2 kaca dan coklat yang beranika rupa.. hmmm sedappnyaa (well, chocolate is one of my favvooorite..).. bestnyaa kalau dapat hadiah coklat2 tu... ehhehe hints hints.. :P

Then dekat tempat parking kereta, kereta plak problem. So dengan bersusah payah 3 org iron ladies pergi check kat engine. huuhuh bukan saya yg jadi ketuanya.. pemilik kereta la sape lagi kalau bukan cik laili kita.. boleh tahan dia check minyak hitam, air, air bateri semua.. dan yg paling best lampu suluh kami gunakan handphone yg ada lampu suluh. betul, memang ada henpon macam tu.. saya ada, tapi murah jer ler harganya.. satu harga henpon 3G maybe boleh beli 7-8 ..tapi sgt2 berguna..jatuh pun tak rosak.. fikir2 nak choose between 3G phone yg canggih dan mahal tu ke atau nak pilih kamera biasa yg tak canggih tapi selalu berguna? tak boleh nak buat keputusan plak.. ehhe cenggini punya cerita pun dah susah nak decide.. tapi fikir balik, takkan nak kasi mak pakai tepon 3G kan..mesti adik2 yg lepas tu pergi tukar dgn hp diorang.. (oh, btw cerita pasal berbuka puasa ni ditulis atas permintaan laili.. hohoho).

Anyway friends, just for your info.. probably my current hp number 3678740 will be terminated soon. so bitau je ler kan ni. on the way nak terminate (ada some procedure kena tunggu since ni corporate line). pls update yourself, insha-Allah sempat saya akan inform nanti tentang no. tunggal (chewah..cam projek single number access aritu plak).. utk sesape yg ada no lama /personal tu (end with '3122) inshaAllah no tu lah saya gune nanti..

Ok hari ni ada pertandingan akhir arm wrestling between staff in my unit. so, it was not bad.. saya jadi menang sorak..takleh masuklah, dah jadi judge & committee. Oklah, have new staff to attend. selamat meneruskan ibadat berpuasa semua.. and specially for Aida (aida sempat jenguk kejap blog ko:P) Aja!Aja! Fighting! Teruskan semangat utk memasak.. heheheh

Sayonara..

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Ramadhan, 4th

Dear friends,

Receive this from my friends. So kalau ada berminat, boleh tgk kat bawah tu gambar poskad raya ni.. btw, planned to break fast (buka puasa) at MidValley today.. so kalau terjumpa, rajin2lah tegur yer.. i think i will not bring my spec today..takut tertinggal lagi..ehheeh

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Assalamua'alaikum
Ramadhan is back again...Alhamdulillah we are here also again to cherish the blessing of Ramadhan. Soon, Syawal will materialised. As part of our
community outreach activity...we UmmiKuSayang Charity Team (http://www.ummikusayang.com/), a group of mums/daddies with high spirit, positive thinking, dedication and loving heart electronic group (e-group) based in Wilayah Persekutuan, Kuala Lumpur and Selangor, Malaysia wish to initiate Syawal's Raya Fund for two (2) homes :

1) . Rumah Amal Limpahan Kasih (RALK)
2). Pertubuhan Kebajikan Rumah Silaturrahim Nurul Qana'ah

We will be selling Eidul Fitri Charity Greeting Cards (postcard type) RM10 per 8 pcs and 100% profit from the selling will be given to the homes tentatively 15 days or earlier before Syawal. The front page of the card displayed the image(s) of the children from the homes themselves.

We call for all to brighten the kids Syawal and make it another unforgetful Syawal with the shower of love and blessing of Allah on all mankind.

Hurry!!! Kindly contact us for your order and InsyaAllah, we will delivered the Raya Card before 6th Oct 2006 to your doorstep. Additional RM2.80 for postage cost for delivery outside Wilayah Persekutuan and Selangor Darul Ehsan.

Call us to place your order :
1). Yeanti - 013-3439544 e-mail at syeanti@yahoo.com
2). Zarina - 012-2386014 e-mail at zarinasemuri@yahoo.com
3). Ninuk - 012-2092517 or e-mail at ninuknoviati@gmail.com
4). Nadia - 012-3751444 or e-mail at nadialoretta@yahoo.com

The products also exclusively available at the homes respectively and at UkS Taipan – 6B USJ 10/1J, 47610 UEP Subang Jaya - HURRY Get it there!

Further questions on UmmiKuSayang other attribute? E-mail Lily at lily@ummikusayang.com or Hani at hani@ummikusayang

If you wish to contact the homes directly at anytime their detail as below :

Rumah Amal Limpahan Kasih (RALK) - http://www.rumahamallimpahankasih.com/
No. 49, Jalan Bukit Puchong 2
47100 Puchong
Selangor D.E.

Contact person(s) : Pn. Rabaah or En. Zawawi at tel/fax : 03-80601770 or 019-2227339 or alternatively you can assist the home by donating direct via Perwira Affin Bank account no. 101020128984 or Malayan Bank Berhad account no. 562777100922.

Pertubuhan Kebajikan Rumah Silaturrahim Nurul Qana'ah
No. 34A/34B
Jln 10
Taman Batu
Off Taman Greenwood
68100 Batu Caves
Selangor D.E.

Contact person Cik Hidayah 03-61892001/017-9371278 or Mohamad Ishak bin Zainuddin - 019-2125001 or alternatively you can assist the home by donating direct via Bank Islam Malaysia Berhad account no. 14032010035421.

"May Allah blessed our heart with love to the needys as we love our own"

Eidul Fitri Charity Greeting Cards Sponsored by :
http://www.mysunshine2u.com/
http://www.ummikusayang.com/
http://www.ljhomedecor.com/
http://www.teman.com.my/
Nadia
Junet Busra & Co
Hj Imran & Co
EDV Foods Sdn Bhd
Pesanan terakhir diterima sehingga 6th Okt 2006.


p/s: sorry, have some difficulty to upload the poscard. Still trying. will update soon once done.

Monday, September 25, 2006

2nd Ramadhan: DCBA 5th Anniversary

Salam buat semua.
Moga berada dalam rahmatNya selalu. Harini dah masuk hari ke-2 berpuasa, dan saya sudah terasa masa sangat cepat berlalu. Nak buat annoucement: tahun ini kalau ada sape2 rancang nak buat berbuka puasa ramai2 sila2lah buat cepat2 (kalau nak jemput saya la:P) sebab saya akan bercuti awal. Hanya 3 minggu di sini.

DCBA dah genap 5 tahun semalam. Happy Birthday DCBA!!
Semalam ada some flashback inside my memory.. CUma flashback tu bukan setakat kisah 24hb September 2001, Isnin - delegasi ke timur tengah yang mana kami tengah sibuk berkemas2 waktu ini. Gantung banner pukul 2 nanti di susur gajah, waktu tengok students lain balik kampus utk start semester baru dan kami pula nak berlepas mengembara ke sana.. Tapi yang paling saya ingat ialah, malam harinya.. Bila kami akan berlepas, di KLIA..selain sanak saudara dan kaum keluarga, dan of course a press from TV3 dan escorts of VVIP.. saya lihat kawan2 saya yang ramai sekali.. saya sangat terharu.. cuma saya kira saya tak punya kesempatan untuk mengucapkan terima kasih untuk mereka2 yang hadir menghantar kami. Bila saya katakan ramai, maksud saya memang sangat ramai. Sampaikan staff bahagian MARCOM MMU pun terkejut melihat orang2 yang turut datang menghantar delegasi 25 orang termasuk 17 pelajar itu.

KLIA penuh masa tu. Kalau ada pakaian seragam macam pakaian keluar masuk ke asrama dulu, saya pasti warna2 tersebut dahpun memenuhi kawasan KLIA. Terima kasih kawan2.. walaupun production didn't turn out to be like what we wished and planned, tapi alHamdulillah berkat doa2 kawan2 juga kami selamat pulang ke Malaysia.

Saya rasa kadang2 saya agak 'mengabaikan' kawan2 saya. Mungkin sebab saya ni jenis yang tak pandai menyuarakan atau menunjukkan apa yang di dalam hati.. Tapi saya bersyukur sangat dapat kawan2 yang baik. :)

Insha-Allah tengah cuba nak selesaikan kerja2 yang patut buat sejak 5 tahun dulu, i.e. biografi perjalanan DCBA.. Erp..ada training kena handle.. that's all for now!

p/s: AlHamdulillah Allah permudahkan urusan saya hari ini atas doa semalam. Alhamdulillah, rasa macam cepat betul Allah dengar doa ini..
p/s2: Saiful Azni (also DCBAian) a.k.a. Sam it's ur birthday as well kan? Happy Birthday! May Allah bless you and you got what you want in life:)

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

henponku

Did i mentioned that since the last 6 months one of my handphones screen went blank?
Unfortunately i stored most of the contact number inside the handphone. But last few weeks it was already OK. I upgrade the software, and again unfortunately and accidently only manage to rescue names from A to M only. Not sure how names from N to Z was not copy to my sim card. So if in the future i am asking 'whose number is this?' pls do not feel irritated.. tak sengaja la..

actually i am using 2 numbers; one is corporate/office number, another one is personal number. since there is a new rule to be implemented soon on the usage of corporate line, i am considering to terminate my corporate line. that will make it easier for me to manage my handphone. Patut ke tidak ek terminate line ni... ada cadangan? kawan2.. you need to revert back to my old number if u agree me to terminate the line.

kepala saya sejak semalam masih sakit lagi. entah apa sebabnya, tiba2 sahaja. apa2 pun harapnya akan sembuh cepat sediakala.. nak sambut ramadhan ni dlm keadaan the best condition. dlm masa yg sama sdg sibuk juga menanda kertas2 jawapan participants kursus saya minggu lepas. ada 80 semuanya dgn jawapan yg mcm2. pening nak kasi markah, rasalah jadi cikgu kejap.. rupenyer begini cikgu nak kasi markah.. ahoohohho time belajar dulu tak paham soalan pun main tibaiii je jawap, kot2 terkena. rupanya pening juga sapa yg tanda ek. terima kasihlah atas kesabaran mendidik. :)

aish..takde nak ckp ape.. btw pesanan utk Aida, kalau rajin cerita sikit pasal Haiku boleh? arigato...

Friday, September 08, 2006

Inikah sepatutnya..? Inilah sepatutnya!

Saya terfikir, apa yang perlu saya tulis hari ini?

Agak2nya, kalau kejutkan saya di tgh2 nyenyak tidur nak mengajar apa yang saya ajar sejak 2 bulan lepas mungkin saya boleh sebut satu2 sahaja.
Agak2nya nak suruh saya lukis balik apa yang akan dilihat di skrin untuk topik2 yang saya ajar sepanjang minggu ini, mungkin sepantas kilat saya lakukan.
Agak2nya nak suruh saya cerita lain? Kepala saya rasa blank..

Ke memang nak suruh saya cerita pasal sistem-sistem tu juga? hehehe

Semalam saya baru habis training for people who are supposed to supervise their 'anak buah'; a 4-days-course. Minggu sebelumnya baru habis training untuk a group of people to use the new system.

Sepatutnya minggu depan saya attend kursus stress-relieve di PD selama 4 hari..
Alih2 dapat arahan postpone-kan semua training dan pergi bagi training di Taiping selama seminggu. Kali ini bukan sistem training, tapi skill training. Bertolak hari ahad ini. Waduh2 katanya bukan arahan tahap GM dah, tapi atas lagi.. adoiii .. saya kata pada kawan, kalau bela hantu raya nak suruh yang hantu tu serupa saya pergi taiping biar saya berseronok di PD.. hohohooh tapi takdelah, Nauuzubillah je buat keje tak senonoh ni.. biarlah ada satu sahaja saya, kalau ada lebih nanti saya tak istimewa dah.. kan kan kan:p

Jadi apa yang saya nak kongsi sekarang selain sibuk kerjaya saya?
Sekadar untuk ingatan diri saya yang mudah lupa, bulan Ramadhan yang dirindui insha-ALlah akan tiba dalam masa 2 minggu lagi.. Juga peringatan untuk diri yang selalu lupa ini, moga diri lebih banyak menginsafi kejadian ciptaan Allah SWT. Dan tentunya harapan kali ini, amat mengharapkan dapat memenuhi Ramadhan dengan sebaiknya, dan (tentulah) dapat Malam Seribu Malam (Lailatul Qadar). Insha-Allah.

Salam hormat buat semua. sampai bertemu lagi.

Monday, August 28, 2006

uhum..

Frustration..
some people said it is a sign of commitment..

but when frustration is mounting too high,
and motivation is shrinking down..
in which resulting towards 'heart broken' (if i may say that)
what whould u expect to happen?

yeah.. commitment is almost no more..
spirit and enthusiasm say no word
everything is mess up
working not in a competitive environment, but anger and panic
and not knowing where to go and whom to talk
riot? maybe one day..not so far in the future..?

kata orang, perempuan ini banyak betul cakapnya..
sebenarnya bukanlah nak bising2 mengata
sekadar tidak tahu ke mana mahu mengisahkan prihatin dan kebimbangan
di kalangan perempuan ada juga mengingatkan, "Kalau memberi pada yang tidak AHLInya, maka runtuhlah segala yang dibuat".

sesak rasa jiwa. cuma harap tinggal menghormati akhlak juga masih bertahan membuat kerja.
itupun kerana tengok Halaqah di TV9 malam semalam, tentang menjaga dan memelihara akhlak dalam masyarakat malaysia kini..
kalau tidak? hmm.. mungkin dah banyak curi tulang...

Friday, August 04, 2006

sawang

lama dah tak jenguk sini.. habis bersawang berhabuk rasanyer sana sini..
cemana nak buat, training dr jam 9.00 pagi sampai 5.00 ptg baru habis
tinggal sejam lebih nak semak kerja2 harian.. tu pun byk tak tersemak..
so yg tak termasuk dlm kerja2 harian, prioritynya agak kureng sket..terpakse diletak ketepi dulu...

apa nak cerita..?
personal? kerjaya? negara? atau dunia?
byk sgt dlm hati.. apa2 pun tgk posting emak Nufayl ehhe teringat plak masa di Pangsun. Hany, awak sure ke awak tak edit ape2 kat gambar saya tu? Nampak cam kurus sket pipi tu dari gambar yg saya lihat masa kat sana :P
Dah lama tak main2 cenggitu, penatler juga dgn aktiviti2 yg adik2 ni rancangkan. Saya akan cuba ingat nama2 adik yg saya temui di sana - fatiah, eein, waheeda and shima. tapi yg paling tak akan saya lupakan ialah shima pinang sebatang (sbb satu group dgn saya la heheh) dan juga waheeda p* setompok (kumpulan satu lagi yg dok rebut kerusi dgn saya:P). segan plak bila adik fatiah (eh ke fatiha yer nama awak?:P sorie lupe..) tanya kat saya "Ni kak ika yg selalu sibuk tu ke?" terkebil2 saya dgr kemudian dia ckp, "saya baca blog akak juga". hohoho terasa ntah apa2 lah yg dibaca tu yer diknon..

ermm saya ada sambungan training kejap lagi.. hari ni saya buat 3/4 hari, so ptg karang ada masa sket utk saya .. so kalau sempat i'll update again. kalau tak sempat, insha-Allah when the rite time comes i'll be here back;)

Thursday, July 27, 2006

out of office

was not in the office for handling training non-stop for 4 weeks and 3 days..
and today is the cut-over for the new system implementation, will be held this morning at 10.00 am..

and then, i will continue with another 4 weeks-non-stop-training which means i will be out of the office again..

unfortunately i lost my words to update things on blog now..
but i believe so many bloggers for which u can get so much info..
insha-Allah to see me in the future..
meanwhile, peace upon all of you.

Monday, July 03, 2006

which jersey?

last friday
after few hours looking for a jersey on the prev day
i choose Argentina's jersey at last...

so many people were smiling when they saw me wearing the jersey
and those wore germany's jerseys were having this kind of look to me, 'whoah, see you tonite'-look.

my brothers were asking me a lot of questions on football
'cuba ckp, siapa pemain argentina?' he asked
'Van Nistelrooy' i answered
So there my brother ketawa tak henti2...

yup, i am not choosing the jersey because i knew the team..
But it was because the jersey's color is nice.. ehhehe
and the name just appeared because i think i step so many times in the office lift with his picture inside.
sorry laa.. maybe i need to learn more for the next year.. or actually is it the next 4 years?:p

btw, my transfer matter.. it is still hanging.
nobody is calling me yet to clarify on the planning. :)

Monday, June 26, 2006

tolong saya!

they are fighting,
between to have me here and to send me there..
far far away... i mean it is really far from the family and friends
and the probability that i will be *alone* there
and one of the concrete reason is 'i am single, high mobility'

What is WRONG for being single?

aaa.. i felt like asking one of the good bachelors to marry me (bukan kawen misyar)..
one of the friends told me to tell them that 'ada org datang merisik'
another one suggested that i printed few wedding card, put anyone's name there and inform that i am getting married by August , and when the month comes tell that 'now-i-knew-his-true-color-and-i-don't-want-him-anymore' reason.

maybe i should go to the place where good handsome single guys are lepak-ing ..err is there any?:P maybe..i should go to KLCC every now and then to find one who can become my contract-fiance? mcm cerita full house? kuang kuang kuang

aduuuh..sakitnyer kepala saya... dan dah mule merepek2 nii... aduh.. saya mau pulang begini...

Friday, June 23, 2006

~~~ fuh ~~~

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Kadang-kadang kita terperangkap, antara kasih sayang dan tanggungjawab terhadap insan lain dan juga susah senang yang diri sendiri perlu hadapi kerana tanggungjawab itu. I hate to write when i have mix feelings of angry, frustration, half-hearted to do it because i knew that i might tell unneccessary things..revealing my own secret to people. But sometimes, i really can't hide my face expression no matter how hard i try.

God, show me the way. Healing my heart.

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Hijrah.
The history was telling us that the Muslim from Mekah was instructed to go to Madinah. Left everything they loved behind them, the families, houses, farms, assets etc. They didn't know what awaits them, but the promise of God that they will be in the good hands.

Not sure if Allah wants the same history trail to be on my path. Thus i can't make my mind now. To say 'yes' or to appeal for 'no' option. And not sure whether i have the option as well. If i say 'yes', leaving everything behinds me - whether i can survive? If i say 'no', staying where i am - whether it is better for me to go? Hope Allah will put my heart still to the best decision. Amiin. Insha-Allah.

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Now, the World Cup's thing.
Yeah yeah yeah, we do talk about it now at work. Not because of the matches only, but because we are required to wear jersey on Friday next week. So to those who are around Cygal next week, don't be suprised if you see people wearing jersey to the office. ehhehe

Now the problem is, even though i did watched several matches (or actually few minutes of several matches- few minutes in the beginning, few minutes in the middle, and few minutes in the end total out about at most 15 minutes each watched game ehhe) but i can't make my mind (again!) which jersey team i should choose.

The ladies at my office one said,"I think i am choosing Sweden because i love iKea". Anothe one said, "Which team is this (pointing to one of the lift door that is painted with world cup team colors)? I think i am going to choose Holland because i like that colour".

I don't want to choose Brazil because a lot of people (i believe) are going to wear that colour.
Should i choose "South Korea" (but it is all Red) because i watched a lot of korean drama? or Germany (because my brother said they maybe winning this year?) or Ruud Van Nistelrooy's team colour (because of him laa ape lagi). Or should i choose to become Golio instead? ehheheheheh

perempuan perempuan.. bak kata K&K kat Era Radio - mana boleh pilih pasukan bola sbb suka kaler baju.. :))

Monday, June 19, 2006

Room for A Cup of Coffee

Something to share, for some of you may already read this.

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee:
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the was jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "Yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things--- God, your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions--- and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter-- your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else--- the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy onthe small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

p/s: So for those who asks for see-ing me, tell me and gimme a call when you are ready. a short meeting (or dating as friends always said:P) will be a no problem for me ;)
test

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

haruskah

baru masuk ofis hari ini selepas seminggu tinggalkan ofis..
tiba2 tgk email ada training perlu attend untuk 3 hari bermula esok.. uhuks..tak sempat panas kerusi ofis..

ada sepasu (kecil) pokok dihadiahkan oleh bapa adam naqiudin masa menang kuiz hari tu.. lama sgt tak berjaga /bersiram byk daun yg mati (kering)..nampak gaya kena bawa balik rumah dr tinggal kesepian kat ofis.. sian pokok tu..

baru lepas input data evaluation utk trainer. sekali tgk 'percentage' untuk trainer below KPI.. uhuks, rupanya ramai tak berapa tau cemana nak isi borang evaluation sbb selalu lepas saya explain baru dpt markah ok. tapi haritu tak sempat nak explain, mereka dah hantar dulu.. agak2nyer tahun ni mesti performance tahunan saya drop.. kdg2 mende2 kecik camni boleh buat rasa lemah semangat nak mengajo.. kan? yelah, rasa cam dah berusaha sungguh2 tapi 'pelajar2' masih kata kita tak perform.. uwaaa!! :(( mana aci mereka letak mende ni dlm KPI!!!

terfikir.. mungkin saya mmg tak perform kat sini.. nak quit tak.. haruskah?

p/s: kdg2 sampai waktu fragile, emotional saya terlebih2 kan.. biarlah sekejap, byknyer ckp jer.. belum tentu buat.. tgh sedih lagi ni.. uhuks..

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Terima kasih

Taiping.. Hujan setiap hari, selalunya di waktu petang..
Di sini lembah, kelilingnya gunung dan bukit.. Memang jauh dari kesibukan kota.. Memang juga bagaikan tak terasa tekanan pergi dan balik dari bekerja.

Sambil menyelam minum air. Sambil datang bekerja, saya ambil kesempatan untuk menikmati apa yg ada di hadapan. Sekejap lagi baru sampai waktu saya ke depan bercakap dan berkongsi apa yang saya ketahui. Harap2 mereka faham, dan saya lancar menunjukkan apa yg patut.

Pengalaman menjadi orang yang berdiri di depan, bercakap, mengajar dan melihat muka-muka mereka yang belajar walaupun untuk seketika banyak membuatkan saya lebih menghargai mereka yang berkongsi ilmu di hadapan – samada cikgu, pensyarah, penceramah, speaker etc.

Kenapa?

Sebab saya sudah rasa betapa penatnya perlu melihat nota pelajaran, menunjukkan apa yang berada di skrin hadapan, bercakap dengan suara yang audien boleh dengari, memerah otak mengingat apa yang telah dipelajari untuk diajarkan dan kemudian berjalan kepada mereka kalau2 ada soalan yang mereka tidak faham dan tidak dapat jawab yang perlu saya tunjukkan di skrin. Dalam pada itu perlu menjeling2 wajah2 audien kalau2 sebenarnya mereka faham, atau tidak.. saya tercepat, atau mereka sudah hilang tumpuan. Perlu menjadi lebih kreatif bagaimana tidak membuatkan mereka tertidur ketika saya mengajar. Perlu fikirkan supaya fokus mereka tertumpu dan semangat mereka tak bercelaru.

3 jam bercakap memang penat. Seharian mengendalikannya buat rasa ‘flat’. Bila di depan memang tak terasa, bila duduk sahaja tetibe rasa nak minta org angkat balik ke bilik… Tapi ada kepuasannya, bila orang faham apa kite cakap, orang suka apa kite ajar, dan orang datang kepada kite di akhir kelas mengucapkan terima kasih. Lebih buat kite senyum, kalau borang ‘evaluation for trainer’ tunjuk kite dapat markah cemerlang. ;)

Untuk itu saya sudah berkata kepada diri, supaya di lain kali lebih memberi perhatian tentang apa yang diperkatakan orang di depan saya. Supaya cuba untuk tidak tertidur, atau terlayang fikiran.. Supaya cuba untuk tidak bercakap byk dengan orang lain, silent-mode kan handphone.. Supaya untuk lebih fokus tentang apa yang cuba disampaikan.. walaupun orang yg di depan saya tak suka, saya tak dapat tangkap ayat2nya, tak handsome, tak cantik, monotonous, atau topiknyer mcm dah berada di episod 4 sebuah cerita dan saya tak pernah tgk pun episod 1-3 cerita itu.. Insha-Allah.

Terima kasih untuk mereka yang pernah mengajar saya, menunjukkan kepada saya, berkongsi ilmu dengan saya..samada cikgu2 saya, pensyarah2 saya, teman2 saya, cikgu2-tak-formal saya dan anda juga pembaca2 yg selalu ke sini, memberi komen2 bernas, berkongsi blog dengan saya.. (Mungkin sebenarnyer saya patut tulis ini 16 Mei yang lalu, tapi takpelah..jasa org yg berkongsi ilmu saya kenang sepanjang hayat.. :) )

BTW, selamat hari lahir untuk mereka2 yang berada di sekeliling saya. Untuk Amiir dan Muhammad, juga untuk sahabat Siti Zurina. Juga untuk mereka2 yang saya mungkin terlupa nama2nya. Moga rahmat Allah SWT selalu untuk kalian.

Ops.. masa saya dah tiba untuk jadi 'cikgu'. Jumpa lagi!