Pindah lagi..

hari ini pindah lagi.
Sejak setahun yang lalu memegang jawatan baru..
ini kali ke-4 saya berpindah..
kali ini lebih tinggi. di tingkat 15.

agaknya kali ke-5 pindah ke mana lagi?

kali ini tidak bergambar, sebab saya masih sibuk mengemas.. :P

Tunggu sebentar

Peringatan:
Posting kali ini banyak bergambar. Ambil masa 4 hari baru siap. Maybe 4 minggu lagi baru posting seterusnya?:P Selamat membaca dan melihat gambar;)

gambar hiasan - merenung langit

Ada orang suruh saya menulis begini…
“Saya bertemu dengan seorang putera kacak di sebuah istana lama.. Sungguh tidak disangka2 dia muncul, setelah lama saya menunggu.. Dia adalah seorang Prince Charming yang saya nanti2kan”

Saya rasa jikalau saya bermula dengan bercerita begitu, mungkin sebenarnya saya sedang berfikir untuk menulis novel. In which, I am really not good in writing about feeling towards the opposite gender. After all you wont think I am writing this kind of stuff after a long silence, would you? heheh tak mengapa, saya sendiri sudah tergelak besar dan rasa nak 'pengsan' bila disuruh menulis itu atas nama saya. So since menghargai rakan yang memerah minda memikirkan ayat2 itu, saya quote sahaja daripada dia:P.

Oh, another news.. This time my writing will mix a lot on English and Bahasa Melayu (Malaysia?). I’m sharing my experiences and point of view. Jadi maafkanlah saya yang mencampur-adukkan bahasa.

So what was actually happen?

Last weeked (From Saturday to Monday), I am considering myself as utilizing my leave and visits to Ipoh to really explore the places there. Went to Ipoh initially for a wedding dinner of one very close colleague (her love story itself already feel like being in a film), we (me, my junior/friend Laili and her brother) started our journey by car a little late at 2.30am in the morning of Saturday. Arrived there at about 5.30am in the morning where I was really sleepy (and tired). It was an adhoc change of the original plan to go back by early Saturday’s morning, due to urgent matters we were rushed preparing our luggage – Thank Allah for everything was in. After Subuh prayer, we have a rest (in peace). At about 11.30 am, we had our brunch at a café/restaurant next to Open University in Ipoh before continue our explorations.

Saturday, 20th
I did not planned to go for shopping in the first place. Our first location was Greentown Shopping Complex. Did some window shopping there, ended up bought two blouses. After that we went to Jaya Jusco. Was looking for one good camera, and in need of it since I want to capture my trip this time. After quite sometimes I managed to get my own digital camera. I think God knows better, at last I believe I get the best one as this is among the latest edition. Watched in a Korean drama about the camera used in the drama that can be attached to the TV and use remote control to play it back (is it already here for quite sometimes already?). My camera is something like that. AlHamdulillah. After all the money I save to get this. :) (but still I think I can get better offer and free bits if I bought it in KL.. if I have more time to negotiate with the salesperson..)

Went out from JJ Ipoh, arrived to the house at about 7.30pm, rushed preparing ourselves for the dinner. Arrived there at about 8.30 pm, saw familiar faces among the crowd. There were so many people attending the wedding. As this is the first time I attended an Indian wedding, we were kind of lost. I tried to ask around (as the bride informed us she already reserved several tables for us) and we managed to get our seats. Had some chit chat, ate and took photos.

After the dinner, we went to the town to have a drink with my colleagues from KL. Went to one of the warung near Saloma Bistro (not sure if the Bistro is still operating or not) Someone stopped my friend and I, asked us about the Royal’s family names. We were a little bit confused, answered few of the questions and unable to answer the rest. My friend is from Ipoh. So she knew at least the name of the Sultan (King) and Permaisuri (Queen). I knew the King’s name and the King First Son’s name only. Hehe Kuala Lumpur and Melaka has no King after all. Had teh tarik and sotong kangkung, my colleagues invited me to join them staying at Casuarina hotel. Apologized to them as we already had our own plans.

After that, they went back and we (didn’t went back obviously) with our traditional baju kurung and kebaya went to the Night Market. I mean, it was in the middle of the night and it is still operating the business. It is a real Night Market. Most of the stuff avaialable are handphones casing, handbags, bags, shoes etc. Did some survey to find a handphone and camera’s casing. I bought one for my camera.

I forget what time did we arrived home, went to sleep and woke up in the morning of Sunday, 21st.

We went to have breakfast at the café next to the Open Uni, which is near to Lokin (not sure how to spell it). This cafe actually owned by the brothers of my friend. I tried one of the special menu - roti bakar with special homemade jem. A must to try. Highly recommended. Jem istimewa diperbuat daripada buah2an tropika.

Lokin, also known as Memory Lane is a place where you can get all sort of things from the antiques to the latest items.

I saw a number of antiques lamps, typewrites, old coins, knives, keris, parang (panjang pendek semua pun ada), needles, benang, lampu, wayar, spannar, candle light stands, old fashion handbags, shoes, used shoes, old magazines, dulang, periuk belanga etc etc. banyak betul barang. Dan dalam senarai2 barang lama itu, guess what did I found? This 1 set VCD of latest drama/soap opera Korean Movie: Fireworks , currently playing at NTV7 every weekdays night. Peminat2 barang2 lama mesti berminat nak berjalan2 di sana. Duit syiling lama boleh dapat pada harga RM2.50 sekeping. Oh, ya antara barang pelik yang saya jumpa ialah kupon letak kereta lama…

duit-duit lama & syiling lama close-up

perhiasan dulang lama



What did I bought? Buah salak. :D

Middle of the day, we went to Muzium Ipoh. Unfortunately, it was close due to maintenance and will be opened only on middle of February. Ada sebuah kubu persembunyian semasa serangan udara di sana. Kami ambil gambar (dan bergambar di situ juga). Inilah rupanya tempat persembunyian itu. Batunya keras dan tebal.

kubu persembunyian serangan udara

Then, we headed to Stesen Keretapi Ipoh. Took some picture of a tree named 'Pokok Ipoh', planted in the middle of small taman in front of the railway station. So, the place was called 'Ipoh' by the name of the tree. Reason? Maybe because of the tree's benefits. Read down here..

stesen keretapi ipoh (under renovation)

pokok ipoh

info pokok ipoh

After that we went to OldTown Café (3 tingkat youuu..) at Greentown Business Center. Had the famous White Coffee and Toasted Bread there. The dishes price there is OK, menu is just like the other kopitiam (chiness coffee house). It is air-cond, nice sofa, nice interior design, and the waiters/waitresses are all equipped with small walkie talkie (just like the one used by the bodyguards)..wahhh hebat.. eheheh .

I went there with my friend and her younger & youngest sisters. The youngest sisters (called herself ‘Ya’) is a 15-years-old girl who is very active in Basket Ball. A player of her school, she ordered one bread (I don’t remember the name.. something more or less like ‘iron bread’ and ice-blended hazelnut coffee. To her the ice-blended tastes a little bit bitter, but to us the adults we feel it is nice. Her sister was teasing her saying that she needs to get used with the bitter taste if she wants to grown up. She responded with, “Kalau macam ni, taknaklah besar sampai bila2”. Nevermind, we concluded that she has not fully developed her coffee cells in her body yet.


signature dish for OldTwon WHite Coffee - toasted bread

..... the iron bread...... eaten by Ya...

Laili's sisters

Later, my friend and I went to err… tak tahu nak panggil apa, tapi kedai yang jual pasu bunga, dan bunga dan juga perhiasan untuk perkahwinan. The prices there are not bad. Quite cheap. I bought two stroll of ribbons (untuk perhiasan bila beri hadiah). Then we walked to another shop and another shop, bought few more items. About 45 minutes there, we went to Gunung Lang. Laili’s sister accompanied and showed us the place.

Gunung Lang.
It has a small lake there, with really Big fishes. I think the height of the fishes on average more than 1 meter. The counter sells fish food at 50cents per bag. There is an island, a small one in the middle of the lake. To go there by boat, you need to pay RM5 (pergi-balik) for return-ticket. But not so much activity to do here. Children playground, and nice view. . There are a lot they can do here to put some attractions, such as service for kayaking, water-bicycles, horse/donkey riding etc. I think there must be a reason for not offering that kind of services to the visitors. I heard the boat-rider talked about mysterious lake-animal that appeared at night time, or latest by the time they close the place. Last boat back to the land is by 6.30pm.

view from a tower on the island

to penonton Meteor Garden: jalan ni mcm dalam cerita tu kan?

Lewat petang.. kami pulang..berehat sahaja. Tidak ke mana-mana.
Rancangan asal akan pulang di malam hari. Usai mandi, kami menonton CSI di Astro. Duduk2 sambil minum teh dan makan roti bakar, i can't stand my eyes. So at about 12.00 mid nite i excused myself, informed Laili to wake me up when they want to make a move, went back to the room to have some short sleep. with full attire, and socks as well. lastly i found out i woke up at about 6.00 am and was still at the same room.

Monday,22nd
We started our day with a breakfast at the same cafe. I choosed to have the bread with special homemade jem because i knew that it's gonna take some time before i can taste it again.

Discussed about our next 'check point', Laili proposed to go for Mee Kari /BeeHoon Soup at Megoplax Shopping Complex. So there we were, after some went-a-around and sure-or-not-this-is-the-way since the pilot appeared to be consufed with the roads. hehehe. She claimed it has been sometimes she went there, and usually she didn't go out much if she came back hometown. OK, you are forgiven dear. :P

After had our meals, we walked aroung the place. I saw ice-cream counter selling my hard-to-find ice cream flavour there.. Chocolate Mint. Requested for the ice cream, unfortunately it was too hard to scoop. The counter lady suggested other flavours ice-cream, but i just want to have that flavour, not ice cream. Sadly, i cancelled the request. Gosh! Kenapalah sesuatu yang saya suka tu susah betul nak carik.. :P

Walked around and did bought some cookies because they look cute. hoohoh i just want to taste those cookies. Those cookies were in the shape and colours of apple, corn, strawberry, pineapple etc. I bought the corns. Actually it is a pineapple tart. But it is very nice. The taste, a little bit sweet.

Next, we moved to Kellie's Castle... (the place where the 1st paragraph mentioned).

Kellie's Castle aka Istana Kellie

I took a number of pictures there. Laili asked why i took every corner and every room inside there, i said i might want to have my own castle. hehe OK sebenarnya saya rasa sangat menarik sebab bangunan itu masih lagi kukuh berdiri. Selepas lebih 100 tahun. Bayangkanlah. Bangunan sekarang tak sampai 10 tahun kadang2 sudah mengalahkan bangunan antik rupanya. One more thing, rekaan tingkap-tingkap berbentuk kubah. I wonder, why. Bila diselidik, rupa2nya ada unsur2 senibina Islam. Dan 'istana' tersebut mempunyai sistem pengaliran udara yang sangat baik. Sesuatu yang boleh diselidik untuk rumah2 zaman sekarang. Sebabnya bila berada di luar, cuaca terasa panas. Tetapi sejuk bila masuk semula ke dalam rumah.

reka bentuk tingkap dan pintu berbentuk kubah

Ada banyak papan tanda/penerangan di situ. Salah satunya mengenai jalan ini..


Jalan di koridor bawah... dan koridor atas...

jangan biarkan hidup anda diselubungi misteri...


Dikatakan, ada orang selalu nampak roh tuan rumah berlegar2 di jalan ini. Betul ke tidak saya tak tahu. Tengoklah gambar kat atas, mana tahu nampak sesuatu? :P

Rumah ini sangat tinggi. Ada 4 tingkat. Dan tingkat teratas, kita boleh naik lagi sehingga ke bumbung. Di atas tu tiba2 saya rasa salah satu fear factor saya ialah tinggi. Saya rasa gayat. Tiba2 tidak boleh berdiri. Tapi ambil gambar macam2 pose kami buat di atas sana. Kelakar juga. Sebabnya ada sebatang pokok yang sangat menarik, kami jadikan latar belakang gambar2 kami.
Kediaman Kellie ini ada dua bahagian; bahagian baru adalah istana 4 tingkat dengan beberapa belas bilik. Bangunan ini tidak pernah siap sebenarnya, sebab tuan rumah tersebut meninggal ketika membeli perkakas rumah di luar negara. Bangunan kedua yang bersambung dengan bangunan baru melalui jalan luar adalah rumah asal keluarga Kellie. Bangunan tersebut sepatutnya 2 tingkat, tapi tingkat 2 sudah hampir tiada. Ada 3 terowong rahsia dibina semasa pembinaan Istana Kellie. Untuk pergi ke sini, perlu melalui jambatan batu yang merentasi sebatang sungai yang dalam. Ada pengurusan yang menjaga kawasan ini, untuk itu setiap pengunjung dewasa dikenakan bayaran RM5.00. Ada juga kedai makan. Jadi tak perlu risau lapar dan haus.

Belum habis mengambil gambar, tiba2 bateri kamera sudah habis. Kami berehat sebentar di wakaf berhadapan bangunan. Sambil minum dan makan makanan ringan yang dibawa. Melihat jam, rupa2nya sudah hampir 3 jam kami di situ. Panas dan berpeluh, saya buka cermin mata. Kami berbual2 mengenai istana, kawasan sekeliling dan membayangkan apa yang pernah berlaku di situ dan bagaimana keadaannya kalau istana tersebut siap.. Ketika itu kami lihat segerombolan orang lama sekali di kawasan hadapan, di atas jambatan.

A: Apa diorang buat tu? Lama betul kat sana...
B: Entah, ambil gambar kot. Tu banyak kamera.

Tiba2 ada seseorang datang ke arah kami. Dia tengok kami, kami tengok dia. Dia senyum, kami senyum balik. Dia tengok bangunan dan ambil gambar di sekeling, kami tengok bangunan dan tengok dia balik. Cerita bangunan tadi sudah berubah.

A: Tingginya orang tu.
B: ..Hmm..
A: Rasa2nya dia tinggi tak?
B: Tinggi.
A: Angguk2..
B: Dia main futsal.
A: ?? Macamana tahu? (takkan kenal kot?)
B: Kaki dia panjang.
A: Oh, yer? Kenapa futsal?
B: Sbb orang yang main bola, kaki dia lain.. (dua2 blank...) Ok, dia seorang outdoors.
A: Setuju yang itu..

Kami diam. Kemudian tiba2 ada suara.

A: Agak2 dia dah kawin?
B: Belum. Mungkin dah.
(selepas bertukar2 pandangan...)
"Dia mungkin dah kawin. Mungkin belum. Kalau belum, rasanya dia sudah berpunya".
Kami bersetuju.

Kenapa tiba2 dia menjadi perhatian?
Sebab dia mengingatkan saya kepada orang ini..

Kata kawan saya, sebenarnya saya obsesi terhadap orang* di atas. ehhehe
Saya fikir mungkin juga.

Tapi kata lain, saya menghargai kecantikan sebenarnya. Orang yang kami temui ini (tidak diketahui namanya), antara orang2 yang Allah kurniakan kecantikan. Kerana saya pernah terfikir betapa cantiknya (kacak?) Nabi Allah Yusuf, betapa indahnya para malaikat yang menjadi dugaan bagi Kaum Luth, bagaimanakah gambarannya. Dan melihat orang2 yang cantik (perempuan sudah ramai kan?), terus mengingatkan saya betapa kerdilnya ciptaan saya ini. Jadi kalau ciptaan yang di hadapan mata sudah sebegini cantik, bagaimana pula dengan Nabi Allah Yusuf, dengan Rasulullah SAW dan tentukan betapakah cantiknya Sang Pencipta itu sendiri?

CSI semalamnya berkisar seorang suspek seorang jurugambar profesional; dikaitkan dengan pembunuhan gadis bawah umur. Gambar2 di rumahnya banyak gambar2 gadis bawah umur dalam keadaan b*gel. Simpan gambar2 gadis bawah umur boleh dikenakan tindakan, tapi tidak jika atas nama seni. A tiny line between these two conditions kan..?

Dalam perjalan ke Clearwater Sanctuary (saje nak tengok tempat apa ni..rupanya Golf Club & ada juga tempat memancing); kami sambung berbual.

A: Boleh tak kalau kita ambil gambar lelaki tu tadi?
B: Atas dasar apa?
A: Ialah, atas dasar seni. Appreciation of the arts. He's one of the arts. Bukan senang kan nak jumpa lelaki yang macam dia. Almost perfect creature.
B: Berlandaskan apa? Dari sudut yang mana..?
A: Kalau lelaki minta ambil gambar perempuan, macam tak susah atau pelik sgt kan? kalau perempuan ambil gambar lelaki? Kalau dari sudut Timur (ketimuran)?
B: Kalau dari (sudut) Timur, mungkin boleh. Walau macam tak biasa.
A: Kalau dari sudut agama?
B: Hmm..tak boleh, kot. ...
A: Yelah, rasanya tak boleh juga sebenarnya.
Rupanya ada hikmah kamera habis bateri.

Kenapa tak boleh? Tgklah pendapat masing2, tapi bagi saya takut ada masalah hati nanti. :) Sedangkan menjaga hati (dari mendekati sesuatu yang boleh mendatangkan kepada keburukan) itu juga perisai ilmu supaya tak hilang begitu sahaja dan diri supaya tak hanyut dengan fahaman sendiri. Lagipun nak dibandingkan ntah gambar sapa2 yang terjumpa di net dan seseorang yang kita tahu mana nak cari, yang kedua lebih bahaya kan.. ? Allahu'alam.

Teringat perbualan dengan Mudin beberapa tahun yang lalu. Tentang lelaki cantik dan perempuan cantik. "Perempuan cantik, bila berjalan ada satu syaitan bersamanya. Lelaki cantik, bila berjalan ada 2 syaitan bersamanya. Bermaksud lelaki yang cantik itu lebih banyak godaannya dari luar dan dalam". (betul tak Mudin?;) )

Jadi bagi lelaki2 cantik di luar sana, semoga anda tidak kalah dengan godaan & dugaan dan sentiasa mengingatkan diri anda. Dan bagi yg melihat lelaki yang cantik (saya jugalah itu) moga2 Allah pelihara hati2 kita.

Oh, ya..sebagai penamatnya, selepas Clearwater Sanctuary kami berkemas dan pulang ke Kuala Lumpur... Jam 10.30 malam Isnin terasa terubat rindu bila menjejakkan kaki ke rumah. After all, "Home sweet Home".

:)

Notes:
* Gambar lelaki di atas adalah Kang Ji-Hwan, pelakon lelaki Korea.

Luas Pandangan 2007

Salam buat semua.

Lembaran 2007...

Lewat sedikit saya menulisnya. Kerana perancangan agak kelam-kabut (masih) di sini. Tetapi saya juga tidak mahu perancangan kehidupan saya sekelam keadaan yang sedang dihadapai di sini.

Permulaan 2007..
Juga hampir serentak permulaan 1428H..
Moga2 lebih banyak kebaikan yang akan saya terokai tahun ini. Untuk menjadi penghuni kehidupan dunia yang baik, moga2 dapatlah sedikit sebanyak bekal dibawa ke sana nanti..

Tahun ini seperti tahun untuk saya berjalan meluaskan pandangan melihat muka bumi ciptaan Allah SWT dan mempelajari sesuatu darinya. Ada perancangan untuk pergi ke Korea Selatan (Seoul) insha-Allah jika diizinkan ALlah SWT; juga perancangan untuk perhimpunan alumni sekolah menengah atas dan dinner sekolah menengah rendah; perancangan bercuti ke Pulau Lang Tengah (ada sesapa nak join lagi?); dan mungkin ambil cuti sedikit lama untuk merancang perjalanan sendiri dari KL - Macau - Beijing - KL semula.

Minggu hadapan insha-Allah bercuti bersama keluarga ke PD untuk beberapa malam. (alasan mak saya: Iqbal, anak buah saya nak mandi di sana. Sedangkan Iqbal bercakap pun belum pandai. hehe nenek dia yang nak gi sangat ni kot). Tempat telah pun ditempah. Tak sabar nak jumpa anak buah dan mandi di sana juga.

Saya kira saya sudahpun memulakan acara percutian ini.
Bermula minggu lepas. Sehingga semalam. Di Ipoh.
Nak tahu ceritanya? Tungguu.. antara cerita itu ialah Cerita bertemu Prince Dowma (nama gelaran untuk seseorang yang kami tak tahu namanya:P) yang tiba2 muncul di celah2 masa akhir kami di sana.

Cuma bersedia, untuk membaca catatan panjang lebar itu.. :P

Untuk waktu sekarang, saya perlu melihat dulu apa2 yang belum dibereskan kerja. Minggu depan seminggu tiada di pejabat kerana kursus DAN SEMESTINYA kerana bercuti...

Di Bawah Bayu

hari ini satu hari saya dengar orang suruh saya bersabar.
dan beristigfar.

mungkin mereka tak pernah melihat saya semarah & sebising ini (untuk beberapa ketika). tapi saya memang geram yang amat. saya katakan kepada mereka jangan tanya banyak2 dekat saya sebab sekarang saya sedang berada 'di bawah bayu'. oh, ya peribahasa itu sudah ditukar keperluannya. dan memang tidak diiktiraf di mana2 institusi rasmi. biasa dengar orang kata bila marah - 'naik angin' atau 'hangin satu badan'. maka sbb bayu tu ada unsur2 angin (mungkin bayu sbb sejuk aircond atas kepala kot?) so saya gunakan perkataan itu untuk gambarkan tahap angin saya.

Nasib baik ada punch bag yang tergantung di sini. Saya pinjam punching gloves dan pukul punch bag tu kuat2.. lega sikit.

pasal apa? pasal apa lagi.. pasal diorang la..
rupanya bila masuk dunia korporat yang satu lagi ini..
lebih ramai manusia yang tidak boleh dipercayai. lebih ramai yang berbohong dan tidak tahu bekerja, kemudian mengatakan sesuatu yang buruk/tidak benar tentang orang itu semata2 kerana tidak bersengkokol dengan kemahuan mereka. sudah lah begitu, berpura2 baik di hadapan rupanya sekam di dalam api. sedangkan terserlah ketidak-ketahuannya itu. lebih ramai yang hanya tahu untuk permudahkan diri sendiri, say one thing yet not doing it. say it once more and i'm going to quit to be with those people. i will.

sejak 2 bulan ni tahap haba dalam badan saya memang tidak pernah turun. selalu membara. terutama jika berada di pejabat. jadi jangan2 ada yang cuba buat provokasi. nanti takut ada yang terbakar. atau tiba2 terkejut melihat semangat bercakap.

saya minta maaf.
jika keadaan masih belum tenang di sini, masih belum teratur, mungkin jangan cari ketenangan di halaman ini.

apa yang saya nak buat?
saya mungkin masih ada sedikit kesabaran.
tapi saya sudah tidak boleh senyum.
series.

strike

when you are stucked for what you need to do...
when you do not know what to do...
when you do not understand the matters, do not know how to do..
what will you do?

at the moment, i have no manager. at most time people are going to refer to the most senior person in the unit. and at the moment, the most senior person is happens to be me. and it seems havoc. everything seems to be in a little adhoc. i am facing difficulties to understand their needs. the needs from their boss and theirs. do i need to open a literature/languange study class just like what we used to have during our primary and secondary school time?

i do not know what else to do. they do not want the work. they dislike the task. yet they are bounded to work. they want to change the task, but we cant do anything about it. it is all about attitude. teach me how do i manage attitude? do you have idea..? can you share it with me?

year 2007..
it made me feels i'm losing people at work whom i can discuss things. especially exchanging ideas on work and tasks. or simply new fresh ideas.

everyone's rushing here and there.
it is still cloudy here.
do not know what to do, at least i should, and that is what i am doing.
i'm waiting.. the next thing to happen.

....

Lamakah

Ada orang tanya bila nak update

Saya terdiam lama..
Bukan taknak update. Mmg rasa hati bersalah ada hasrat yang tak tertunaikan. Saya kira sebab paling utama ialah, saya masih belum jumpa semangat baru lagi. Ralit membaca blogs orang lain sahaja. Juga, idea yang ada bersepah2. Tak tahu hujung dan pangkal, tak tahu relevan dikongsi atau tidak. Juga idea2 agak personal, untuk tatapan diri sendiri dan sebahagiannya makluman yang terdekat sahaja.

Apa2 pun sedang mencari sumber inspirasi.

Tunggu, sebentar ya. :P

Uhhum..

Sejak akhir2 ini, fikiran saya banyak sedikit terganggu dengan cerita2 berkisar kerja dan pejabat. Terlalu banyak conflict luar dan dalam yang perlu saya fikirkan. Saya kira sudah cukup pening dan celaru. Susah nak dijelaskan; lagipun ada orang fikir saya terlalu berfikiran negative. Well, even my boss admitted that at most time I do think positive. But for the current situation, as she told me ‘If someone who is as optimist as you are at most time could be like this, just imagine those who are not’.

We received the news already that we are being seconded for 1 year to the new management. And after that one-year we can decide whether to continue with the new management or revert back to the Parent co. I am not sure the ‘We’ means ourselves or actually the decision of those Big People. Because, they can just change the rules whenever they want and like to do… So the decision heals some of my 'thinking things', but still not totally eliminate what i have in mind.

4-working-years, I learnt a lot of things on human being. It seems that we (the Malaysians and especially the Malays) are moving very fast towards the world of materialization. Whatever we do or going to do at most time is meant for ourselves only. Those who think for others will usually be the sacrifice. The bigger and more you think about the others, the more you are going to be slashed in and out. To make it worst, some of those you think about will actually trying to get as much possible from you. Unfortunately, the higher the post holds and the bigger the salary earn will also leads to greediness to fill in your own pockets – without considering the responsibility, the future, the generation, the nations ..the sustaining of one. Sad. Am so sad. Thinking that actually there is a lot of things are going to take place in this very near future…

I am considering not disclosing my real name on the net. Bro Rollie, maybe you are right. Maybe too many people already knew who I am on the net, and it can be dangerous. :)

The best I can do right now is..
1. To do my job at my best.
2. To inform my participants to do good deeds for themselves and the people around them.
3. To maintain my own principals of life. Do not let others try to change it as accordingly to the world’s scenario today.
4. To develop myself to become a better person.
5. To have some relaxing activities, and events.
6. To pray…for Allah’s forgiveness and to seek peaceful heart.

And lastly, but not least ‘To smile’.
I guess the last one is the easiest thing for me to do now.

Thanx to friends who did asked about my situation. Thanx to those who care about me. I didn't realize that i was one of those optimist until you said so. I should try to have myself back soon. :) How wonderful it is to have friends like you all. Thank you for being by my side.

Berkat Cikgu

I had chit-chatted with my boss. I think i am gonna miss her when she 'retired' from here soon.. She applied for VSS and it has been approved.

We talked about one incident that in a session of ISO awareness given to staff, the people in the group were questioning the trainer's objective. The face of the trainer changed. The trainer was so frustrated with the non-cooperative attitude; plus when they were requested to show how to get the info - they can't do it.

In the end what happened to them?

The other group who has no problem with the reason for the awareness session and the way they were being taught, understood the concepts and using the right forms. And the people who were questioning the teacher, was the one who using the wrong forms and had to re-do their jobs.

My boss said: Tulah. Cikgu ni kita tak boleh nak lawan2. Ada berkat pada cikgu ni.

And the conversation continue with broaden subjects. Such as what is currently happened in the country. Including tentang pengajian agama, dan pembelajaran alQuran. She mentioned about 'Berkat Cikgu'.

"Sebab tu dalam ajaran Islam kita disuruh berguru dan menghormati guru. Dengan keadaan murid (pelajar) yang bersedia untuk belajar, perlu ada persediaan untuk belajar (mcm kertas, pen, buku), keadaan cikgu yang perlu melihat pelajar, cikgu juga perlu ikhlas nak berkongsi ilmu, mata cikgu perlu lihat pelajar, sebab dalam mengajar ni ada roh dia. roh ilmu itu sendiri. transfer of knowledge".

"Recalled back, when Rasulullah SAW menerima wahyu, keadaan Nabi masa terima some wahyu tu sehingga berpeluh2, bermaksud certain ilmu tu 'berat' sebenarnya. Bagi yang menerima dan mengajar"

Itu buat saya terfikir, betapa bukan mudah menjadi seorang yang berkongsi ilmu. Certain types of courses made me exhausted. Some of the trainers almost lost the voice to talk. Jika tak ikhlas atau tak bersungguh2 mengajar, juga menyebabkan anak murid (pelajar) tidak dapat menguasai sesuatu dengan baik. Selalu mengingatkan diri saya untuk tidak berlaku prejudis di dalam kelas; dan melupakan kalau ada rasa tidak suka kepada mana2 pelajar sebab ianya mcm menjadi satu doa pula untuk pelajar itu boleh atau tidak menerima ilmu yang diberikan.

Juga membuatkan saya terfikir, betapa saya sudah lama tak berhadapan dengan seorang guru untuk belajar. :)

p/s: posting yang lepas ada adjustment sket, sbb taknak seolah2nya nampak 'controversy' dalaman. ehhehe Aini, insha-ALlah takda cakap bukan2. Sekadar peringatan untuk diri saya yang selalu lupa.

Pergi

Saya dah lama tak rasa macam ni.
Kadang2 sgt saya rasa. Kadang2 saya fikir rasa sebegitu membahagiakan.
Kadang2 saya fikir rasa itu sgt sebak. Sedih sampai saya rasa saya nak nangis.
Rasa yang buat hati saya bergerisik (err ada ke mende ni dalam kamus ek? macam berdesir tu kuat sgt bunyinye.. )
Tapi airmata saya takdelah keluar lagi.
Dan takde pun berita buruk yang berlaku sekarang
Atau orang yang sakitkan/kecewakan hati saya
(organisasi tu lain cerita.. tu desir lain..)

Tapi mungkin ada hikmah yang akan menanti hadapan saya.
Mungkin ada ilmu yang Allah SWT nak anugerahkan kepada saya. Allahu'alam.


Kata orang, 'antara tanda2 orang berilmu ialah selalu rasa nak mati'. Kenapa? Tanya saya. Kata orang 'sbb orang yang berjaya ialah orang yang selalu mengingati mati'. Dalam perlu saya teliti. Tapi otak saya tak kuat berfikir dan meneliti dalam2. Saya cuma rasa, itu kata orang.

Saya fikir. Saya jarang rasa, dan saya tahu ilmu saya sgt2 kurang nak dibandingkan dgn ramai org2 di sekeliling saya. Entahlah, mungkin peringatan utk saya kalau2 satu hari jadi benar.

Awak nak kata apa2?
... :)

HELP! i am DEMOTIVATED!

have you heard it before? yeah.. i guess years back when this blog was first discovered.
i am really2 demotivated. i am moving towards hating my work place. the people i am working with or going to work with or whatsoever it is.

i always try to avoid being in an agressive environment, as i know that at most time i wont be able to hold my anger. now i am not supposed to say anything as things are not at my level.!!!

someone, pls motivate me back?

Gosh!

I did it again!

At the moment i wrote this, i just shoot a sharp email to all the big people in the TO & CC list. Gosh, langgar protokol lagi.. tak tahuler ape yang menanti plak ni..
Kata seorang, harimau awak yang dah diam lama tu tiba2 mengaum ke.

Aishhhh... pray no bad things await me. :D
Teringat plak pepatah, terlajak perahu boleh diundur. Terlajak tekan SEND, hanya VIRUS je yang boleh erase..

err..should i send an email-virus now?

Done

it has been a while.
not that i don't wnat to write anything here. But i have the feeling of distinguish the writtings between personal matters and what i want people to know. i was hoping that i don't write much. afraid of letting my inner freedom being seen by so many eyes.

i guess i am being too pampered with my boss. and it turns out me becoming more not productive. or is it actually the environment surrounding me that give the unproductive energy towards every one else. so many people were asking me the questions on what happened here as my division is the one involved with the so-called havoc. i can't share with people over here, as to respect the terms & conditions of being the employee. most of them saying that i am saying negatively, but i have the ground of saying those things.

so what would i share with my fellow friends here.. remember, few years back i was discussing about the economy situation in Malaysia and predicted that the inflation is going to strike in malaysia soon, and the petrol price is going to go down when it was high. i(now i have the guilty feeling of not sharing what i know the most with my friends). i am not saying that i know it is going to be, not saying that i am dam* good with the figures and facts of economic statistic. to be honestly, i have the feeling of loosing the idea and picture of those numbers. but from the condition i have now, something is reallly really not right with Malaysia.. (if i am going to say what i want to say, will i be arrested? well u know that bloggers are being monitored by the government isn't it? )

i see the ideas, of which it is good. but i also have the feeling, implementation is not as good as on the paper. when things are not going smoothly, then there is something wrong with the current state of economy and the management of the country. continuanity of this will resulting in Malaysia becoming like Indonesia's state of economy. i have to gather all the facts before present the opinions. i guess most of the readers are already aware the possibility that we are going to be a stranger in our own land. Macam melukut di tepi gantang, menang bersorak kampung tergadai...

it hurts so much. so much to think about my own people, about my own land that more and more of them are becoming not Malays.. and indirectly not practising themselves as a muslim. i was thinking about the batlle of hundreds of years to fight for our own rights; thinking that all the people who were killed and died to protect our belief that God is One, to protect the land, the people, and the life of the next generations..

mungkin saya tidak pernah mengkaji secara mendalam tentang sejarah negara saya sendiri. mungkin saya hanya tahu sedikit sahaja. walau saya bercakap dan menulis dalam bahasa lain, tapi saya kira saya lebih mahir di dalam bahasa sendiri... menulis di dalam bahasa lain, supaya ilmu tidak hilang begitu sahaja kerana saya adalah insan yang tidak kuat ingatannya.

kadang2 terfikir, kesiannya kepada adik2 sekarang. belajar sudahlah sangat susah; kemudian sains dan matematik ditukar-ajar ke bahasa inggeris. sometimes i was thinking what is the point of doing that? untuk mudah dapat kerja nanti? untuk jadikan lebih berdaya saing? untuk lebih banyak mengkaji ilmu2 itu di dalam bahasa lain? kenapalah nak dibebankan budak2 itu saya rasa. kalau tujuannya supaya mereka dapat mengkaji ilmu2 sains dan matematik dgn baik, tukar ajeler silibus dan pendekatan pengajaran supaya lebih menjurus ke arah itu. kalau nak katakan untuk kerja dan lebih berdaya saing, kenapa tak wajibkan sahaja semua pengajaran di IPT Malaysia di buat dalam bahasa inggeris? saya sendiri pun sekolah dulu belajar bahasa melayu. alHamdulillah boleh dikatakan agak berjaya juga sekarang. saya kira ramai sudah graduan2 yang berjaya dan hebat2 yang dulu di sekolahnnya memang sekolah yang bahasanya bahasa kebangsaan. apalahh masalahnya dengan negara sendiri, bila niat seorang diri hancurkan seluruh masa depan negara. terlupa agaknya setiap seorang dari rakyat akan datang menuntut hak mereka di akhirat nanti.

p/s: peringatan untuk diri sendiri:
panjang pulak kali ini. sudahlah tu, awak tu pun entah ke mana hala tujuan. macam bagus sahaja tulis gitu dan gini. pulang sahajalah, marilah pulang sebelum bertambah kelam...

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...
so many things to write and share.
yet, due to my own lack of self management, this is the only thing i am able to share...

flying high

i am flying high.....

resume non-stop trainings as usuall.
my trainees seem very cooperative. and they responding to my questions.
the class is fun and live. Quite happy teaching the class.

met other colleagues and bosses after the class.
we were having some chit chat. the boss shared some info from the group discussion, about the situation of a customer service agent received a call from a customer. The conversation went on and on. The customer seemed impressed with the agent. and here was the 'so-called-conversation':

Customer: Are you the manager?
Agent: No, i am not.
Customer: Are you the team leader?
Agent: No, i am not.
Customer: Who taught you all this?
....

It turns out that the agent is under the responsiblity of my training unit. I do not know who is the agent, nor do i know who taught the agent.
But i am still happy, because the agent is under our territory..
hehhe
i'm flying high. :P
alHamdulillah.......

at least, something better to hear after all the mess and bad news and havoc things and etc etc..
:)

Lost

I wonder why every time I had some good ideas to update my blog, I will be unable to do so due to network problem, or not being in front of the PC. Yet when I have the chance to be in front of the PC and there is no problem with the network, I’ll loss the idea to write.

Few days ago I was a little bit down. Depression. The reason? I felt ashamed of myself. I was trying to write an essay about my carrier plan and ambition outline, but found out I lost the words and the construction of the sentences were not to my satisfying. A friend of mine assisted me to do some proof reading. AlHamdulillah. At last it was done. But I think I have lost my ability to construct a good essay as I did during my studying time… It is difficult to describe how I feel, it was seems I do not appreciate my knowledge and continuously applying the value learnt in myself. Insha-Allah I will try to continuously make myself learning.

Went thru the tons of emails, my eyes found this :

"Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman."

- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

At that point of time, I felt a little bit better. As if God knows better, the surah came just at the right time. So I let it go and put all hopes to Allah SWT. If it is good for me, it is meant for me. If it is not meant for me, means it is not good to me. : )

Anyway, I appreciate those who want to put comments not hiding behind anonymous identity. Have a nice day.

Salam Aidilfiitri

I hope it is not too late for me to wish all of you selamat hari raya aidilfitri. Maaf zahir batin atas segala salah dan silap terkasar bahasa dan laku.

I'm back to office already.
But today am strunggling to write an essay on career plan and ambitions.
Sounds not so good, need to polish my writting skills...
Maybe i should reduce wathcing TV and start reading back all the economics journals... huuhuh tak tercapailer hasrat di hati kalau gini...

dah gelap..masa utk pulang.
saya dah blank hari ini...

Balik Kampung...

Balik kampung...wohooho balik kampung..

saya dah buat ramai tense hari ni bile mereka tahu saya dah mula bercuti..
dan hanya akan balik selepas cuti raya..
ehhehe
tapi.. saya masih lagi kat ofis pada jam 4.45pm ni.. :(
sbb tgh tunggu kek besday saya sendiri (yg obvisouly saya sendiri beli :P)
ok kek dah hampir sampai.. untuk itu sampai jumpa lagi..
selamat berpuasa!! :P

Ramadhan 19th: alHamdulillah

Alhamdulillah..
- Perkara pertama yang terdetik di hati saya bila pertama sekali membuka mata. Betapa Allah telah memberikan sekian banyaknya nikmat dan masa untuk saya pada kehidupan ini.

Dalam perjalanan tadi, tiba2 saya teringatkan teman2 lama di Kampus dulu. Mereka yang telah bekerja bersama2 saya, yang menjadi anak-anak buah saya dalam aktiviti kampus. Alhamdulillah saya fikir betapa beruntungnya saya dapat mereka yang komited dan sanggup bersama2 saya.

Mungkin saya pernah menjadi seorang ketua, dan mungkin saya bukahlah seorang ketua yang baik. Ada janji2 yang saya terkilan tidak dapat tunaikan, samada untuk peserta2 program saya atau untuk committees saya.

APa yang diberikan kepada saya membuatkan saya sentiasa ingat bahawa bukan mudah menjadi seorang ketua. dan ketua selalu perlu membuat keputusan - the best they think will benefits all. Dulu saya tidak penalize orang atas kesalahan mereka-dan penjelasan yang baik telah diberi, tapi once they started to create 'havoc' - saya akan menjadi keras terhadap mereka.. apa2 pun yg terjadi saya tidak akan memberikan apa2 sokongan kepada mereka.. Ada sedikit unsur emotional, tapi saya tak usik org dulu kan:D

Saya pasti ada juga kata2 saya yang agak tegas dan critical. kalau ada mereka yang terasa dengan saya, dan mereka ada membaca tulisan2 ini saya minta maaf setulus hati. Tugas dan tanggungjawab yang diberikan kepada saya membuatkan saya perlu jadi 'keras' dan tegas, demi mempertahankan apa yang sepatutnya. Tapi saya pasti mereka juga dapati saya boleh menjadi kawan yang baik(kan kan :P)..

Terima kasih yang tak terhingga kerana selalu bersama2 saya, menyokong dan membantu saya. terima kasih terutamanya kepada College COmmittees 2000/2001; MMU Run Committees (Student Integration Program 2000); College Festival 2001.

Ada orang kata saya suka imbas sejarah.. Mungkin tak bagus, pada mereka? Entahlah, sebab kadang2 sejarah membuatkan saya lebih berhati2 di masa depan. Sejarah membuatkan saya belajar byk perkara, dan tidak melakukan perkara2 yang tidak sepatutnya lagi. Saya cuba, sekurang2nya untuk jadi lebih baik. Insha-Allah.

Apa2 pun, terima kasih atas ucapan selamat yang diberikan. :) Selamat hari lahir juga untuk Zarid dan juga Momay (Hajar). :)

Ramadhan 17th: Standby Team

Isn't it the Day the first sentences of alQuran came to Rasullullah SAW? And it is already 17th-Day. How time flies so fast... When i heard what Prophet SAW said about how much people wish the whole year is Ramadhan if they knew what lies beneath, i think i would wish the same.. for years already... Because this is the month and the time when i don't have to face with terrible nightmares that wake me up at the middle of the night with fast heart beat.. Because this is the month i do not feel 'afraid' of those unseen things.. or feel it existences. Because this is the month i feel relieve in my soul and the month when i feel so peaceful at my heart. AlHamdulillah i can still be in this Ramadhan. Really hope that i will be able to do better before the end of Ramadhan. Insha-Allah.

Another gonna-be-controversial remarks for today..

They are going to go for picketing this evening… Just came back from Urgent Meeting; and all the axe-kutip have to standby at centers. I? Not going to say anything much. Told already there might be a ‘riot’, rite? Oh, as being informed and instructed.. I won’t say ‘no comment’, instead all the responses will be answered by our respective management group. So, inline with what I vowed and signed to become an employee of my company – I’ll keep the story to myself and the staff of this company.

For those who think the picket will be called back.. I don't think so. They are very firm about this.

And if u wish to talk to me, no problem. I’ll be here at the office until late evening (not night ok) .. Mehlah bukak puasa sama2 dengan saya di sini, jangan segan bawa makanan sekali. hehehe Oh before I forget, sorry to all who invited me for berbuka puasa, I can’t make it. :) Insha-Allah we’ll meet at some other time.


Other things? Let see if I have spare time to talk to the computer this evening…

12th Ramadhan: LRT = Bas Mini Alaf 21?

Ada orang ingin saya menceritakan kisah pagi tadi. Kisah 3 jam di LRT baru sampai ke ofis.
ntahler..saya tak larat nak cerita balik.. cuma penat jugakler tukar train smapai tujuh kali.. 7 kali diulang. pagi2 tgk org dah penuh kat luar kawasan.. ada seorg pemandu bas beritahu, masalah sama berlaku lagi - train tak nampak dlm screen. dah tunggu lama kat luar ni.. dekat sejam saya agak2 dah ok, masukler ke dalam... cerita naik train la ni..

Tren 1: Dr setiawangsa patah ke wangsa maju
Tren 2: Tukar train gi ke tmn melati..
Tren 3: Kemudian tukar lagi train. dr tmn melati ke terminal putra, patah balik lalu tmn melati terus ke wangsa maju.
Tren 4: Kat wangsa maju kena tukar train lagi ke setiawangsa (balik!)
Tren 5: Dr setiawangsa sampai ke KLCC tukar train lagi.. Kat sini salah plak annoucement..diorang sudah terbalikkan train ke arah kelana jaya (which is selatan) dan terminal putra (which is utara).. tapi saya stick je dgn annoucement dlm train supaya naik train seterusnya ke kelana jaya..
Tren 6: Naik tren dari KLCC ke Masjid Jamek..turun lagi
Tren 7: Dr masjid jamek..dan akhirnya baru sampai ke Kerinchi..

Dan saya memang lewat amat ke ofis.. sampai ofis saya separuh nak pengsan, nak ckp dan senyum pun tak larat.. Akhirnya pukul satu (waktu rehat) saya tertidur.. alhamdulillah dah ok balik.. apa2 pun nasib baik saya tak keseorangan dlm 'perjalanan' sejauh itu.. kalau tak saya lebih tense..hehehe itulah Encik Sam dan jugak Cik Haineyy.. hohoho mekasihler sanggup tunggu sama2 naik..

Cerita kelakar nak kongsi ialah..since at most time only one platform yg berfungsi, jadi setiap kali tren datang petugas akan menjerit train tersebut utk ke arah mana supaya orang tak tersi;ap masuk.. "Gombak, gombak, gombak" (refer to terminal putra); and then the next train "Setiawangsa, setiawangsa"; and everyone was like "ha setiawangsa, masuk masuk.."

And of course, as usuall, kepala dah start menerawang.. If in the earlier age of 70s and 80s, Bas Mini was the main trasport until people complaint about overloaded passengers, it seems to be the same for LRT (Putra esp). And after about 30 years, we have the new kind of "Bas Mini"; with no-more-space-to-squeeze-in in the morning.. (kalau tak caya..korang yg bawak kete jee or yg luar KL tu tryler dtg KL hari bekerja jam 7.15 - 9.00 pagi mesti faham). Imagine, how would it be in the next 30 years? MM..mungkin mcm hainey ckp, die jadi 2 tingkat plak.. hehehehehe

(boleh tak kalau cerita ni takde penghujung, saya gantung aje kat sini? :P )
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~tamat~