Berhenti Mengharap

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Salam, bukan sekadar ucapan tapi juga doa. Pembuka dan penutup segala pertemuan, mengeratkan ukhuwah.. Cumanya, bukan semua dpt menghayati erti sebenar itu semua termasuklah aku!

Well, sekali lagi bertemu Jumaat. Insya-Allah, if everything else goes on smoothly, i will be moved out from bukit mahkamah's office to hold a harder responsibility at Business Control, Contact Centre Management Division. Cam gempak je kan nama department die.. eheh Telekom ni macam tak kasi org nak kawin kot, tgklah lagi diberi keje berat2. Camni nak curi masa cari 'org' pun tak sempat. ehe kidding all:p

When i was a little bit younger, i think that i have a stronger faith and positive attitude towards almost everything. I always believed that if i was given something or suddenly changing my easy-going, simple to a complicated, tighth path it was because Allah SWT wants to prepare me for something that i need to do in the future. I believed that HE wants to smooth out my work later on, to give a place for me in HIS world. No matter how hard it was, i won't regret and i won't stop doing it. I always believed that there is nothing impossible for the God to do, if HE wants it. I always believed that all HE has to do is to grant, and it will be as what HE wants. That was the reason why i have a verry strong will last time, in which some people see them as keras kepala, keras hati, energetic, too idealistic, argumentative; which is tooo strong and tooo much to be in the body and soul of a woman.

But when i entered into working life, as time past i found out that my belief seems to shattered away. Indirectly, i found out that my thoughts were always too idealistic to be true, in which i always said to my friends (in past time) that i still believe i can make it with my ideas. Slowly, i change my heart from listening to my mind and knowledge to listen to my ears for what people are talking and giving comments on.. It's hard to reject and not believing what u see and what u hear. What can i say, the heart has to go through ears first before the mind; the confirmaty of the facts given by the ears to the heart is streghten by the what the eyes see. I am not that good, positive person anymore. *Istigfar diri* Astagfirullahal 'azim.. (May Allah forgives me) .

Currently i am listening to some old songs yg aku burned dlm CD masa belajar dulu. Lagu nasyid willdone (Menara gading), brothers (Kesaksian), Ik'tiraf.. among the songs i love, sometimes bila dgr semula terasa macam baru ajer aku tinggalkan dunia tu. Tup2 rupanyer sudah 2 thn aku habis belajar. 4 tahun belajar dulu, bukanlah sekejap aku rasa sbb macam2 yg aku dah buat dan rasai. Terlalu byk pengalaman. Betullah kate pendapat, sebahagian apa yg dirasai sekarang pahit dan sukar nanti bila masa hadapan ianya boleh jadi manis.

Oho, ade org remind suruh update blog. ehhe Semalam mmg nak update blog, tapi ramai sgt 'kaco'. Ada yg suh dengar/hantar lagu william hung (american idol, tp sakit tinger sket dgr lagu dia), suh komen lagu baru SO7: Berhenti Mengharap (hehe macam rahsia tersirat yg disuratkan aje;) ), dgn aku sendiri yg dok explore yahoo baru (fenin fenin) , dgn org yg suh aku terjemahkan kata2 aku sendiri. hehe sibuk2, tapi meriah. seronok betul dpt kwn2 macam ni, walau jarang jumpa still boleh keep in touch. :) Cuma maaflah, network mmg problem kan. So kdg2 je dpt online, masa tu lah boleh reply. Kalau diam terus tandanya tak boleh online la tu.

Oklah, I can't talk much. Still a lot to do and catch up before boss balik ofis next week. It's better to give some good 'goodbye' looks although sebelum ni mmg ade melakukan unsur2 pemberontakan.. hehe take care all. And lastly, to a friend of mine that still have nice thoughts on me thanx for being such a wonderful friend. You know who u are. To all, the old song that i downloaded yesterday for you to listen. Dedicated specially for dwicahaya. ehhe until we meet again.. Till then, take care!

~~TM: Dload kat 200.7.10.249.
~~Non-TM: Dload la kat mana2.. ehhe:p

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Ku mencari, ke mencari apakah salahku,
Kau buatku termenung seorangan
Dlm diri sangsi akhirnya begini
perpisahan tak ku duga

Ku mengerti ku fahami keputusan ini
Biar saja aku sebegini
Permintaan terakhirku
Jangan kau lafazkan
Simpan saja kata-kata, oho..

Jangan diucap selamat tinggal
Jangan kau ucap selamat tinggal
Jangan diucap selamat tinggal
Kepadaku.. (2x)

Walaupun seketika walaupun sekelip mata
Simpan saja kata-kata ke akhir hayat yang ada
Walaupun seketika walaupun sekelip mata
Simpan saja kata-kata ke akhir hayat yang ada
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Shades: Jangan Diucap Selamat Tinggal.

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