Losing Me

DeMotivated.

Yes, sometimes we are facing with it esp. in our jobs. But, i guess mine has been prolonged for too long.. it breaks my spirit and enthusiasm to perform at my best, afraid to say that i am actually not performing althou it is true i believe. It is hard to explain, as i myself cannot simply say it out loud or briefly describe it to just anybody. Maybe, maybe.. I need to have a counseling session.. or maybe i should meet the Psychiatric.

I am struggling to motivate myself back... Pls make pray for me to be able to confidently stand back on my feet.

A course's instructor told around the group, "Usually single people thinks a lot. (While looking at me) Are you single?"

I shyly nodded.
(Felt that the blood was all rushing to my face).

A high management told us, "Semua cuti untuk anggota di unit XXX dari Mei hingga 16 Jun akan dibekukan".

My GM is going to leave soon after took the VSS program. And, another network-so-called-call-centre group is going to 'join' us under the same division which will increase the volume of people i am currently taking care. The call centre transformation (centralization) is coming soon.

Oh, forgotten about the school alumni project. Just received the draft proposal document for my part for me to go through, edit, and forward it to our beloved ex-Teacher at my former school for further comment, edit and later the establishment of our 1st school alumni. The friends out there are all excited waiting for *me* to finish my part.

I have the thought that my workload is absolutely going to increase, and i will have lesser time to mingle around esp. on the net (maybe will lost the time as well). Have no doubt about that.

Maybe, he was just right. I think too much.

The course instructor looked at me and said it out loudly, " You think a lot. Now, no wonder you are not married!"

And what did I do?

I Grinned.

:)

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These few weeks are quite tight for me. Almost exhausted from doing all the chores. (I guess, rasa nak pengsan pun ada dah ni... ). But, seeing all the remarks that were left by my friends (you all lah tu:) ) i would say i'm touched having friends like you all.

Thanx a lot for your concern, showing that my blog still has some place in your heart:P

Remember I mentioned about the interview sessions last time? Well, now we just finished the 2nd Phase-3 days- interview sessions. I hardly joined the matter even thou i was one of the secretariats, since I had to attend another compulsory program called "Customer Service Excellent Program" for two-days in which another reasons this blog was left un-updated.

Now, this Friday I am going to Penang to pay-that-promise visit to a friend. My roomie masa kat University dulu, Rusiha. While tommorrow is a public holiday, and i am going to take leave on Friday I guess you will see the real updet (hopefully) latest by next week.

Althou some news shocked me (example of Bakal Pengantin Kak Aza & Abg Amir that was being annouced by Abg Faizal last few days that made me attempted few calls to Aida, as well as Kak Aza..err, kak aza nakal sketlah bile die passed that phone to abg amir.. geram betul ngan die..naik segan org:P ); i can't wrote much here...

Oh,BTW (by the way) .. Thanx to Mr Yasser for brought back and refreshing our memories to our students' project's Delegasi Cyber-Bumi Anbiya' (DCBA) also known as TV program of Kembara Bumi Anbiya'. Siti and I were having some chit-chat about few DCBA-rians who did told us that how much they misses the delegates (we misses them a lot too). Since dah bekerja ni, kami jarang dpt berkumpul bersama2 lagi.. Now, let see..besides Me and Siti, Hany + Zainal and Aina are another DCBA-rians involving in blogging. While I believe others including Najibah, Ummu Anas (Kak Suhazlin) mmg selalu dtg melawat. Cuma takde buat blogging lagi ek:P Err, yg lain.. Sam (Saiful Azni), Halim, Mafus, Ain, Kak Sarah + Ismail ade ke ek korang?:P

Mmm..stories about DCBA i guess maybe i will talk about it next time eh. To Mr Yasser, i will contact you back if there is any information on your request. Insha-Allah. :)

To all,
Have a nice holiday and weekends. Salam hormat.

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Patriotik

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Err... saya ni kan kalau merayau kat mana2 blog kan heran betullah mesti jumpa nick Hanyff punye comment.. Dr blog bebudak, ke blog mak budak, ke blog penulis-penulis, ke blog peminat penyanyi2 sampailer ke blog doktor2 mesti ade nama die kat memana.. terkenaller sesungguh kwn saya ni ek sampai ke serata ceruk internet ade je nama die terselit:p

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Mari nyanyi sesama:
(p/s: Saya pasti Incik Zainal husben Pn HanyFF pasti tersenyum baca ni.. hahahah ops!)

KRISTAL
Mesti Komited Pada Pelanggan
Dan Berusaha Sehabis Upaya
Tunjukkan Kesefahaman Tinggi
Berfikiran Terbuka Sepanjang Masa

Jujur, Ikhlas dan Dipercayai
Pada Rakan, Teman dan Semua
Amalkan Hormat Menghormati
Berkerja Penuh Dengan Dedikasi

Mari Kita Melangkah Bersatu
Sajikanlah Perkhidmatan Bermutu
Merempuh Segala Cabaran
Pasti Kita Unggul Selalu

Telekom Terus Maju Jaya
Di bawah Kepimpinan Berwibawa
Dan Dengan Kesefahaman Wajar
Telekom Kebanggaan Negara

Mari Kita Melangkah Bersatu
Sajikanlah Perkhidmatan Bermutu
Merempuh Segala Cabaran
Pasti Kita Unggul
Pasti Kita Unggul Selalu

Senilagu : Telekom Malaysia Berhad
Senikata : Telekom Malaysia Berhad

Sebenarnyer i am among the usherers on this Wednesday in conjuction of Pelancaran TM New Branding by our PM.... And we are supposed to memorize this song... hua hua hua hope that I do what I preach.. *WORLD PEACE* :p

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Oh, boleh saya kongsi cerite selepas hari khamis nanti insha-Allah? Sibuk lagi.. :p

Hari Hari

[Hari Ini]

Pagi. Hujan.

Sejuk je rasanyer pagi tadi. Nasib baik dah siap2 nak pergi kerja baru hujan turun, dan nasib baik byk kerja perlu disettlekan di ofis.. kalau tidak.. he he he amik urgent leave bleh tak?:D

[Kelmarin Semalam]

Al-Hamdulillah, akhirnya selesailah menjadi Panel utk peringkat pertama ni. Thou this is not the first time i involved in being the interview panel, but every time is so entertained esp if the candidates showed good response..

I thought I would like to share some tips on how to win your interview panels' hearts. Some of the candidates actually were so good, but they don't exposed themselves and their capabilities make it difficult for the panel to make decision, in other words - dlm erti kate lain - the chances to be shorlisted is slim (peluang utk disenaraipendekkan adalah kecil). Tapi mcm tak sempat lagi la. Nantilah ek insha-Allah.

[Kelmarin dan Semalam]

Oh, saya bercuti di rumah Cik Aina selama 2 hari. Hehehe buat ape? Tgk VCD and of course main SIMS sampai 6 jam.. waaa serik serik (tapi nak lagi..ahhahaa). Jumpa juga dengan Cik Izan jiran Cik Aina. Nampak dlm gambar orangnyer mcm berisi, tapi kat luar comel laa ajer orgnyer. Just nice. :)

[Sekarang]
Ops..ade meeting wakil tingkat utk lawatan PM hari rabu ni la sekarang.. hehe so maap yer, tak sempat kongsi cerite2 lagi..
Salam hormat... PErmisi dulu..

Heaven at Feet

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about me.. sibuk tgh handle interview. Sibuk juga jadi panel.
err.. got something here. Maybe some of you have receievd it already. Nice thought. I love the reply!

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QUESTION :
Female-Led Prayers: A Step Forward for Women?
On March 18, 2005 Amina Wadud led the first female-led Jumu`ah Prayer. On that day, women took a huge step towards being more like men. But, did we come closer to actualizing our God-given liberation?

ANSWER :
(This answer was kindly provided by Sister Yasmin Mogahed, a member of Ask About Islam Editorial Staff. Yasmin is an Egyptian-American journalist based in Wisconsin, USA. She is currently studying for a Master's degree in Journalism.)

Salam, Sarah.
Thank you for your inspiring question!
Well, answering your question, I can say that I don't think so.
What we so often forget is that God has honored women by giving them value in relation to God-not in relation to men. But as Western feminism erases God from the scene, there is no standard left but men. As a result, the Western feminist is forced to find her value in relation to a man. And in so doing, she has accepted a faulty assumption. She has accepted that man is the standard, and thus a woman can never be a full human being until she becomes just like a man-the standard.

When a man cut his hair short, she wanted to cut her hair short. When a man joined the army, she wanted to join the army, and so on. She wanted these things for no other reason than because the "standard" had it.

What she didn't recognize was that God dignifies both men and women in their distinctiveness, not their sameness. And on March 18, Muslim women made the very same mistake.
For 1,400 years, there has been a consensus of scholars that men are to lead Prayer. As a Muslim woman, why does this matter? The one who leads Prayer is not spiritually superior in any way. Something is not better just because a man does it. And leading Prayer is not better just because it is leading. Had it been the role of women or had it been more divine, why wouldn't the Prophet have asked Lady `A'ishah or Lady Khadijah, or Lady Fatimah-the greatest women of all time-to lead? These women were promised heaven and yet they never led Prayer.
But now, for the first time in 1,400 years, we look at a man leading Prayer and we think, "That's not fair." We think so, although God has given no special privilege to the one who leads. The imam is no higher in the eyes of God than the one who prays behind. On the other hand, only a woman can be a mother. And the Creator has given special privilege to a mother. The Prophet taught us that heaven lies at the feet of mothers. But no matter what a man does, he can never be a mother. So why is that not unfair?

When asked who is most deserving of our kind treatment? The Prophet replied "your mother" three times before saying "your father" only once. Isn't that sexist? No matter what a man does, he will never be able to have the status of a mother.

And yet even when God honors us with something uniquely feminine, we are too busy trying to find our worth in reference to men, to value it or even notice it. We too have accepted men as the standard; so anything uniquely feminine is, by definition, inferior. Being sensitive is an insult, becoming a mother is a degradation. In the battle between stoic rationality (considered masculine) and selfless compassion (considered feminine), rationality reigns supreme.
As soon as we accept that everything a man has and does is better, all that follows is just a knee jerk reaction: if men have it, we want it too. If men pray in the front rows, we assume this is better, so we want to pray in the front rows too. If men lead Prayer, we assume the imam is closer to God, so we want to lead Prayer too. Somewhere along the line, we've accepted the notion that having a position of worldly leadership is some indication of one's position with God.
A Muslim woman does not need to degrade herself in this way. She has God as a standard. She has God to give her value; she doesn't need a man here.

In fact, in our crusade to follow men, we, as women, never even stopped to examine the possibility that what we have is better for us. In some cases, we even gave up what was higher only to be like men.
Fifty years ago, we saw men leaving the home to work in factories. We were mothers. And yet, we saw men doing it, so we wanted to do it too. Somehow, we considered it women's liberation to abandon the raising of another human being in order to work on a machine. We accepted that working in a factory was superior to raising the foundation of society-just because a man did it.
Then after working, we were expected to be superhuman-the perfect mother, the perfect wife, the perfect homemaker, and have the perfect career. And while there is nothing wrong, by definition, with a woman having a career, we soon came to realize what we had sacrificed by blindly mimicking men. We watched as our children became strangers, and soon recognized the privilege we'd given up.
And so only now-given the choice-women in the West are choosing to stay home to raise their children. According to the United States Department of Agriculture, only 31 percent o f mothers with babies, and 18 percent of mothers with two or more children, are working fulltime. And of those working mothers, a survey conducted by Parenting Magazine in 2000, found that 93 percent of them say they would rather be home with their kids, but are compelled to work due to "financial obligations." These "obligations" are imposed on women by the gender sameness of the modern West and removed from women by the gender distinctiveness of Islam.
It took women in the West almost a century of experimentation to realize a privilege given to Muslim women 1,400 years ago. Given my privilege as a woman, I only degrade myself by trying to be something I'm not, and in all honesty, don't want to be-a man. As women, we will never reach true liberation until we stop trying to mimic men and value the beauty in our own God given distinctiveness.

If given a choice between stoic justice and compassion, I choose compassion. And if given a choice between worldly leadership and heaven at my feet, I choose heaven.

Lost in My Own World

[++] About Me
This week is going to be quite full for me since this week is monthly reporting date (in which i have to prepare the presentation for Management Meeting next week) and also the whole week will be utilized for interview session to hire new contract staff in my division. Thus, I may not be able to update this blog.

Anyway, if I ever have time to do so, I will be doing that... Well, I am someone unexpected kan. ;) he he he.. so hope to see ya around later. :)

Oh, pls pray that I am doing fine.

Wasalam.

Gambar di KK

My friend forward me these photos. Beberapa gambar untuk dikongsi bersama.
Nice view kan. Taken by amateur jer. :D
Siti, nanti kite naik gunung yg nampak tu ler:)

Puncak Gunung Kinabalu dr Kundasang

Puncak Gunung Kinabalu dr Kundasang

Lepas membeli-belah di Pasar Filipina. Nampak tu, tukang bawa kami dah kepenatan. Kesiannya. :D

Kejap Ada, Kejap Takda

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I’m sorry. It has been about a week since my last posting. Have not realized it until Aina told me thru the shout box.

Last weekend, I went to A Famosa Water World. Played with the water, the water-tube, and all other things there. Apa yg best ek? Takdelah sgt kecuali masa main yg macam gelongsor tu, kena gelongsor dengan tube and the speed was wowww.. sape sakit jantung takleh naik! :p but I kept on went up-there to experience the different holes turned out to be around 8 times. Penatlah juga.

I was not feeling very well last Monday. Err to be more accurate, I felt pain esp. at my down right abdomen. So, balik2 tu terus pergi check-up dengan doctor. Yeah, yeah yeah.. I know, some of you are going to smile when I wrote this. But, pls. It was just a quick obsession, (in which I think it should be over by now:P). Hahahah I don’t realize it until I went back home bcoz while I was there at the clinic all I could think was that “Doc, pls do anything to cure the pain I have now. ANYTHING and NOW!!”. It was so hurt that I can barely speak, so my mother told this and that to the doctor. The doctor told something to my mother about the pain I faced, and it seems that I don’t even remember coz all I was thinking at that time was the pain. Allahu Akbar, bile Allah tarik nikmat tu sesekali. I thought will there be possibility that I might die because of the pain. Hehe

Al-Hamdulillah, yesterday I went to specialist check-up at Ampang Putri Specialist Hospital (oh, BTW the 1st doctor gave the referral letter in case my pain’s worsen, but I was ok. Just went to the specialist to double-check after friends told me to do so). And the results- kidneys/tummy scan, blood test, urine test - were negative, good news to me.

P/s: Tak sangkat Hany pun tak sihat sama. Hope she and the baby are fine already. J

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Isu halal & haram yang amat mengelirukan. Sekejap ada, sekejap takda. I think I am not going to throw much comment regarding this “Kejap Ada, Kejap Takda” scenario. Sometimes, yes it does afraid me if we are not choosing the right people to lead us. Because we do not know to what extend their credibility in conforming us that we are living in a safe & sound country. Would that meant for political or economical matters or just what.. ? (Noted that the current case on halal & haram issue is also related to the effort conducted by the Malaysian Gov. to be recognised as the Producer of Halal Products).

I am not trying to touch the politic or economic matter, but more to the truth. Nothing but the truth (hehe mcm jadi Judge Dreg plak..ahhaha). Suddenly I felt like I don’t have trust in my own country. I don’t say that the blame goes to all the non-Muslims, but also to the authorities. I think most of the people here in Malaysia does not really knows what each-other religions mean, esp. the Malays since the Malays inheritance can be divided into two: traditions (adat) and religion (agama). I believe that most of the non-Muslim here wasn’t actually trying to expose us on the non-halal products but merely because they lack of knowledge. Try to think back, during our school times have we been formally informed about other people religions? Have the non-Muslim during their moral times have been well informed about halal-haram in Islam? How about after school, or when they set-up their food business. Were they are well-informed about this? I met some of my non-Muslim friends who actually not really understand about halal-haram food. I mean, they thought the Muslim cannot eat the pork but they don’t know that anything come in contact with the pork i.e. other foods, cutlery, kitchen, and kitchen equipments actually cannot be used to serve the food for Muslims.

It is the time for the media and authority to do something about this. My suggestions are:

1. Include the matter about Halal-Haram in the Moral syllabus every year, and perhaps put it as a must question in every examination for subject Moral (err..is this subject still exists?).
2. Having regular information inside all the newsletter in Malaysia (let say, once in every 3 months) as the same thing using pamphlets to inform people.
3. Obligation for all the people involved in food business to attend ½ day training/examination on halal-haram food upon registration to open food business. Make it compulsory for all to attend & take exam (including Muslims).
4. How about carnival for frozen/can halal food organized by a known-trusted organization? I wouldn’t doubt if the suppliers involved in this carnival will not be participating, and I doubt if I don’t go there myself. :D

So, cukuplah posting tu untuk hari ni. Apa pendapat kalian? And where can we actually address our opinions to the Government? …

Just a two-cents opinions…